Being numb and feeling useless

[Survivor3]

If you don't mind me asking. What were the other traumas?

 

[Rainsong]

Don't get me wrong, Cognitive behaviour therapy did help me, and I had use for it in the beginning, when it was essential that I could manage my depression and anxiety in order to deal with the trauma . But the depression and anxiety were symptoms of my trauma, and scratching the surface of trauma for years without dealing with it in therapy didn't really do anything for me.

 

[Rainsong]

If you don't mind me asking. What were the other traumas?

Well, it was sexual abuse from brothers, thats what therapy mainly seemed to focus on (when they focused on trauma at all). It was also physical and mental abuse from my parents, trauma from growing up in a religious cult, and in addition trauma from being in an abusive and really unhealthy relationship with a drug addict for three years. Then after all that, additional trauma when my child got a serious illness at the age of two.

 

[Survivor3]

Well, it was sexual abuse from brothers, thats what therapy mainly seemed to focus on (when they focused on trauma at all). It was also physical and mental abuse from my parents, trauma from growing up in a religious cult, and in addition trauma from being in an abusive and really unhealthy relationship with a drug addict for three years. Then after all that, additional trauma when my child got a serious illness at the age of two.

oh my god that's awful. I'm so sorry that you had to deal with that. My heart goes out to you. Thank you for sharing. No wonder you have bad days.

 

[Rainsong]

oh my god that's awful. I'm so sorry that you had to deal with that. My heart goes out to you. Thank you for sharing. No wonder you have bad days.

See, my brains first reaction to your heartfelt sympathy is thinking "nah, it wasn't really that bad I'm just struggling with it because I'm a big crybaby". And there lies the problem. Thank you for your kind words, I'm usually dealing pretty well, but Christmas got me