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[Incendiu]

OKRADLAK ...I hope it works out with your new T!

 

[Srain]

Incendiu, I feel for you with the Zyprexa, they gave it to me when the drs were trying to get my flashbacks/hallucinations and other symptoms under control. I started to rapidly put on weight- 10lbs in a few weeks and climbing rapidly! When I complained the dr, he seriously leaned toward me and told me in a very low informative tone, "I want you to, after finish a light meal, put one hand on either side of the plate and gently but firmly ..puuuuuuuuush away from the table, and go for an evenly walk," then smiled at me. :cautious:

I was sitting in tears out of panic because I had a hiatal hernia and was so afraid that if this continued I might flip back into bulimic behaviour and he was giving me this??? I already knew my food urges with this medication were abnormal because I was craving sugars, something I am not prone to. (This is what is interesting about what you said, JamesB.) I did research on the med and found it does cause a high degree of food cravings and there are other options besides making it all the client's fault. Eating disorders compounded by medications are very serious so I'm very careful to work with a dr that understands medications that can cause these issues.

JamesB...seriously 50 words...no problem...without swearing?? could be a problem ;) 5.0 LOL

OKRAKLAK I might check the meds you are on and the length of time you have been on them, is this when you started craving this type of eating or these types of foods? I might do a search on side effects and if your current dr is not working with you as far as your very real concerns of past bulimia and current eating issues - which could very well be being sparked not only by symptoms but meds, then I would suggest you look for someone who takes those concerns into accounts. I think the types of foods may be a key, are they sugary? What meds are you taking, is there are link? I'm glad you are posting about it, it can be such a isolating place to be...but you are far from alone!!

hugs,
peace,
Rain

 

[OKRADLAK]

Srain.......HE SAID THAT?? OMG. So many just do not understand. I think food is to women, in some cases, what sex is to men. That drive, that "out of my way or someone is going to get hurt" manic drive. Not all men, not all women, but you know what I mean. Maybe I am way off. It just seems to be some kind of primal need that we have that they don't.

I am seeing the T. today. It means a lot to have the support here. I looked at my body last night and just thought NO WAY. And then I thought wait a second. I am NOT going to go down that road to hating myself just because I ate too much or because someone else harmed me, etc......I had to look at it and say, "Hey, you are fine." It took a lot because I didn't feel it.

I think this has hit mostly because I am totally away from all family, friends, no car, no way to connect, hard to get food so there is a bit of food insecurity there (eat it NOW----I will have to walk a long way to get it again, etc).

So I think it's a lot of many things. I did all this just to get help! My god it better work because it sure as sh*t has made things worse in the short term!!!!! Fight on, fight on!!!:tup:

 

[Srain]

I think food is to women, in some cases, what sex is to men.

HA!!

Yeah!! Hmmm and my hunny has been eating a WHOLE LOT of peanuts again while I emerge myself in chips and salsa and oh so much mac & cheese, ugh!!! :speechless:

Fight on, fight on!!!:tup:

You got it!! :tup: I'm thinking about you...I stopped myself yesterday simply because I had engaged in this post, you never know when you will touch someone else's life by opening yourself up, thank you ((((((((OKRADLAK))))))))

I'm off to see my tdoc today as well, it's been weeks, I'm about empty of my reserves and could use a bit of help from her.

peace and healing,
Rain

 

[OKRADLAK]

((((SRAIN))))

I am so glad I helped!!! That will give me a boost:)

I will try to keep it going and stop myself today when I am about to make bad choices in that area. Maybe we can get some sort of semblance back if we keep thinking the other is fighting on and supporting! We can do it!!

The hard part for me is knowing when I have had enough. When I was little I used to puke and got it all messed up in terms of knowing how "full" feels. Maybe something was messed up to cause that to begin with, who know?

At any rate , I never feel "full" and rarely feel "hungry" so it's all been calculated on what I need. But, that changes with life, etc., and when you are out of touch with it, it's really hard.

The drs ran a bunch of tests to make sure I did not have a pit. tumour or diabetes because it's so out of wack.

T tomorrow. She was sick yesterday. Maybe she can help me to get back in touch with all this.......

Have a GREAT day, SRAIN!!!! You can do it. :tup: