Not a real Seashell
Learning
I have barely started my journey into recovery from C-PTSD. I was just diagnosed a year ago and dove in head first because I just couldn't handle the intense anxiety anymore. My T has been an amazing fit and with her help I've been able to come pretty far in just a year, read a lot of books, and with the usual back and forth have been able to push myself to take chances and challenge my thinking, still so far to go yet but I'm learning.
Right now I am reading "C-PTSD, From Surviving to Thriving". Quite interesting. In reading I've learned a lot more about disassociation and the nuances of it and I've noticed something that I hadn't been aware of before. I don't know if I'm right about this because it's so tenuous it flits away before I can get a good grip on it but my T thinks I'm on to something. I would like to know if anyone else has experienced this.
I have a lot of negative self-talk, or as this current book calls it, the inner critic. I've learned when it happens to mentally pause and correct my thinking, or at least try to remember that. For the past week or so there seems to be a new element involved, that I've noticed most prominently while I'm cooking. I have Cerebral Palsy so prepping and cooking food is more difficult for me than for most people. So one instance I was trying to cut a chicken beast lengthwise and my inner critic was having a hay day berating me for being so inept. I mentally stopped to correcting and noticed something that right now I can only say felt like a blending between the past and present, very faint, like my brain was trying to re-live, or show me a memory from long ago. It didn't stay long enough for me to fully understand what it was.
Does anyone else know what I mean or have experienced this yourself?
Right now I am reading "C-PTSD, From Surviving to Thriving". Quite interesting. In reading I've learned a lot more about disassociation and the nuances of it and I've noticed something that I hadn't been aware of before. I don't know if I'm right about this because it's so tenuous it flits away before I can get a good grip on it but my T thinks I'm on to something. I would like to know if anyone else has experienced this.
I have a lot of negative self-talk, or as this current book calls it, the inner critic. I've learned when it happens to mentally pause and correct my thinking, or at least try to remember that. For the past week or so there seems to be a new element involved, that I've noticed most prominently while I'm cooking. I have Cerebral Palsy so prepping and cooking food is more difficult for me than for most people. So one instance I was trying to cut a chicken beast lengthwise and my inner critic was having a hay day berating me for being so inept. I mentally stopped to correcting and noticed something that right now I can only say felt like a blending between the past and present, very faint, like my brain was trying to re-live, or show me a memory from long ago. It didn't stay long enough for me to fully understand what it was.
Does anyone else know what I mean or have experienced this yourself?