Body Is Literally Shutting Down

[Ladyghosthunter]

My body is literally shutting down to the point that I cannot be productive here at work or at home. I want to sleep and rest as if my body is recovering from 42 years of PTSD and then a workplace violence episode brought up by my work (EEOC, there I went!!). People know about my PTSD when it is HIPPA law they were NOT supposed to know and I can barely move.

I asked if I can go home and work until I heal from this but it has gotten much much worse since the workplaced violence episode in Sacramento days before 9/11. Two of my best friends were shot and killed and I was put into a bathroom for about 20 hours because the gunman had a 9 mm and AK 47 both duck taped to his hands. I can barely move and I'm afraid of passing out in the middle of the floor.

All of the EEOC crap and the stress of my PTSD has me virtually trapped in a gambit of H*ll. Although I try to walk, I'm scared that I am going to pass out in the hallway and just lay there until an ambulance arrives. I am on heavy medication which has increased because of the workplace violence issue and being written up for crap that was false.

I'm wondering if I should go to the hospital to rest or ...???? Any suggestions?

 

[Ladyghosthunter]

Oh let me explain a little bit more. I see a psychiatrist and a counselor who is dealing with my issues as cognitive therapy does not work on me. I am a psychic and an empath, not by choice but that has been also debilitating for me. What I am going through at work has been horrible....and I expected that I would be claiming whistleblower status. No one knows about my PTSD however now everyone knows and that's a HIPPA issue. I am exhausted and emotionally/physically tired.

 

[cherryblossom]

Can you explain what EEOC and HIPPA mean?

 

[lukesa]

Equal opportunity employment commission.

Hippa is a set of privacy laws that are most commonly seen in large user domains like hospitals, workplaces, schools, etc

 

[Deleted member 1860]

HIPPA is everywhere in the USA. Every time you see a new doctor you have to sign one of those HIPPA forms.

 

[NovemberStar]

I think it is your body telling you to STOP, and take major TIME OUT right now. CAn you see your dr and / or T today or tomorrow?

It might pay to get checked out physically and mentally - mental stress can have a massive role in our physical state, and we all know the mental and emotional toll.

I wrote a thread very recently talking about feeling excessively sleepy and like my body was going to go to sleep on me, but knowing it wasn't physical tiredness - I still get it, and I do believe it is my mind trying to protect me from the mental stuff going on.

Please reach out for support in real time, and come back to let us know how you are. You're in my thoughts - take care!

 

[Justmehere]

Sounds awful what you have been through! So sorry for your loss.

If a provider violated HIPAA (health insurance portability and accountability act) in the US, then you can report them to the office for civil rights as listed on every notice of privacy practices act people sign in the US to see providers that bill electronically. Violating HIPAA comes with possible criminal penalty of up to 90 days in jail.

If they don't bill electronically, they are generally not covered by HIPAA but other regulations that are pretty serious.

If your workplace knew of your PTSD and told more people than they should have, it could be an ADA, Americans with disabilities act claim.

Right now it sounds like they are possibility retaliating for previous whistleblowing though - and that either way, you are exhausted.

In my experience, hospitals are good for keeping people alive when suicidal but not very good for restorative rest.

Being heavily medicated, as you said, that could be a factor in why you feel the way you do and you could be having a medical problem related to the medications. I would highly suggest calling the prescribing doctor and therapist and letting them know as much as you can about how you are feeling and ask if you should go to the hospital to get checked out and re-stabilized.

Can you take some time off from work and rest in the meantime? It seems clear like your body is completely overwhelmed and does need some rest.

 

[Ladyghosthunter]

I guess the problem is a flight or fight issue with me. I want to just go...I know WHERE to go but getting there requires a huge lot of paperwork due to immigration along with other details I'd rather not get into.

My SO (not so significant other) doesn't understand that I want nothing really to do with his family; I dropped my former biological family because of their abuse, narcissism and inability to take responsibility for their horrible words/actions towards me. I am on Valium three times a day now to deal with the workplace violence issue brought up during a mandatory meeting I HAD to go to but my HR person couldn't tell me I couldn't go or shouldn't go. The Director told me to go even though HR KNEW about this incident a long time ago along with my PTSD. Now, the horrors of what happened back then are flooding back like a broken dam and now the nightmares are coming back full throttle. Here in the US, it is law they cannot retaliate against me because of the whistleblower status however they can do what they can to say I'm not following this or that rule or whatever.

I'm doing my job better than I ever was before, however, there is poor management here and being in government for over 13 years, I have never seen such cronyism in my life and people are not organized to save my LIFE! I have a job interview on the 22nd which I hope will take me away from this place forever. Another thing I haven't told anyone is that I live in a very unhappy marriage which only adds to the problem that I have.

It's odd but I'm going to say it anyway; I feel as if I'm the character Daryl Dixon in the show The Walking Dead except I don't ride a motorcycle. He was abused, has the scars, fights without thought, tries his best to be nice or indifferent about certain issues and just doesn't give a crap about things. When his brother turned into a Walker, I felt as if that was my brother-he no longer talks to me because of a divorce I had and my sinister in law has egged on the situation because she is one of the most evil people in the disguise of a Christian. I had to learn to be tough because no one would ever fight for me or encourage anything I ever did-now at 44, I'm fighting battles where I am lead to hold people accountable for their actions against others. I hold God most high in my book and there is a secret I haven't told anyone that I carry. No I'm not pregnant but I'm very unhappy and I need to change everything. I wish I could just walk out of the marriage with all of my things with me as the arguing and verbal abuse I've been getting has been bringing me to my knees.

Yes I wish I could stay in a hospital however, if I did, I would just pack up my things, put them in storage, and grab my cats and just go. Things in my life all around me are closing in as far as the negativity is concerned and I am about to shut everything out and off.

 

[shimmerz]

Hospitals haven't typically been a big help to me. If you are falling into a state of inertia it is more than likely that you are overloading to a freeze fawn reaction. Between that you are probably in fight flight mode. The stress you are under would be unbelievable given the situation you are describing. I agree with @Justmehere as far as hospitals keeping people safe when suicidal but not for restorative.

I had a similar situation although not with such high profile people. I have basically dropped off the face of the earth to anyone but those that I trust. Are you sleeping at all or are you dropping? Is there any place that you can find relief from feeling stalked?