This is a very common phenomenon. It's important to remember (as you are doing) that cannabis is a psychoactive drug. Also important to remember that - as much as growers try and control the plant, their CBD/THC ratios, all of it...you cannot know with certainty what ratios you're getting. So, there's a variable in how much THC you might be getting, and that's going to affect the potential for your mind to have an induced psychosis that you might not be able to distinguish from reality (like, a flashback/memory that feels completely real, but is inn fact, not at all)I feel like the psychoactive weed could have made me feel as if it was a real flashback when in reality, I just created a false memory (I've heard you are more prone to making false memories when you've smoked cannabis).
From a science-y perspective: it's entirely possible that you did.I really need to know if I made this memory up, its important.
This doesn't necessarily mean that the access you are having is reflecting real events. It's (frighteningly) easy to create a false internal narrative, and never be aware that it's false. People often have the experience in small ways...things like being 100% certain they told someone something, only to discover that they really didn't. They thought about telling; then forgot to, then remembered it as if they did.The thing is, most of my 11-15 year old past is wiped from my memory, which I always found weird. And today my therapist noticed that I almost only have access to feeling like that age again when I'm drugged (high or drunk), which is very true.
Of course it's ok. :) I'm glad you've got a solid working plan with your therapist, that's important. And it sounds like you're doing better, overall - which is really, the most important thing.I hope its okay if I answer only once and then try to move on from this, just because my T and I think its for the best in my current situation.