Monochromed
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Hi, new to site and finally sick of my PTSD taking everything away from me.
I'm now 24 years old and it feels like it never ends.
I lost my job I worked for 3 years and was so desperate I took a job at a house service cleaning company owned by a younger woman in March 2014, my girlfriend got a job there first. I was a great fit for the job but after a month my real life issues started to rip me apart. My girlfriend got addicted to ton of things and I couldn't figure out what was going on. She was yelling at me all the time and accusing me of leaving, cheating, lying and all kinds of stuff. When she would drink or smoke weed it made it worse. She then told me she has Borderline Personality Disorder and this is where my job started to chip away slowly.
I was always the really focus, hardworking and leadership guy till my co-workers started to undermine my work, the GMs husband would say things like "Use your f*cking brain!" "What the f*ck are you doing?" everyday. This led to such anger but I kept in deep and buried it. After 2 weeks of dealing with my girlfriend, co-workers and managers. I couldn't hold all this stuff in anymore. I started talking to my co-workers and managers about my girlfriend. As well as talking to my girlfriend about my co-workers and managers. Never got mad, cursed or anything, just was seeking advice cause I don't have any friends. Yes, I do understand the concept of not bringing personal issues to work.
It wasn't enough for me and my nightmares, fatigue and insomnia became so bad I wasn't sleeping for days and coming to work an 11 hour day and to do it all over again the next. I finally started to sleep but for 16 hours straight and came into work 30 minutes late. My manager flipping out on me, threatening my job and I was so overwhelmed I actually started crying. So, I went with my co-workers and I was a complete reck. They were talking to each other and making comments, I couldn't even focus on cleaning. The GMs husband showed up with lunch and then again flipping out, cursing at me and saying it looks like I haven't cleaned anything. I was quiet and to myself the rest of the day and after work began to cry again and went home.
I went in the next and brought my diagnosis paperwork and my General Manager refused to see it. She start yelling at me again and sat me down with her husband for a write-up saying I failed to take criticism and follow company policy and procedures. So, I asked what their expectations were and they didn't give detail. It was like they wanted it to be done a special way but didn't know how to say it and I asked my General Manager if she could work with me for a couple houses, which was no problem.
I came in and worked with her, she told me everything looks great and that she didn't know why my co-workers or husband were making comments about my work. This really confused me and everything seemed to start changing for the best. I wasn't talking about my life, wasn't stressed, I was getting more hours and was really happy.
I then received another call in May after I asked my girlfriend to marry me, do to my happiness and blissful new start. Once again screaming and yelling at me, super loaded on a ton of THC Edibles and the stress triggered the cycle to reset and I came into work right on time. My General Manager Flipping out that my co-worker showed up 15 minutes early and that I need to apologize for them packing everything up. *Here I admit I wanted to lose it, scream and kill everyone there.* But no, still stayed quiet.
This now started a new seek for my GMs husband for finding anything wrong he could find that my work wasn't to the companies standards. Bursting into the houses and not saying anything, just walk in and start looking through the rooms, yelling and saying "I don't want to hear anymore excuses". To be in the car and him start asking me things like "So, how long have you been depressed" "Do you take medicine?". Of course, told him just some of the story, my parents divorced and left me in a foreclose for 2 years with nothing. No electricity, no gas, no water and to take care of 4 dogs, 1 rabbit, 4 fish and 7 birds. I think this was probably the worse thing I could have ever done. I should have just stayed quiet.
I was taken back to the office and told to take the next day off and to come in the following day...I knew I was getting fired and I did. I got a call from the unemployment office now telling me I have a case cause it was a hostel work environment and I will be going to court. To me, DOES IT EVER END!!!...I just want some peace and a good job to pay my room that I rent.
Sorry this was so long but, I guess my question is. Was all this logical that I went through? Should I fight in this case or give it up? Is it going to be ruled that I have mental disorder so there for the company is free?
I'm now 24 years old and it feels like it never ends.
I lost my job I worked for 3 years and was so desperate I took a job at a house service cleaning company owned by a younger woman in March 2014, my girlfriend got a job there first. I was a great fit for the job but after a month my real life issues started to rip me apart. My girlfriend got addicted to ton of things and I couldn't figure out what was going on. She was yelling at me all the time and accusing me of leaving, cheating, lying and all kinds of stuff. When she would drink or smoke weed it made it worse. She then told me she has Borderline Personality Disorder and this is where my job started to chip away slowly.
I was always the really focus, hardworking and leadership guy till my co-workers started to undermine my work, the GMs husband would say things like "Use your f*cking brain!" "What the f*ck are you doing?" everyday. This led to such anger but I kept in deep and buried it. After 2 weeks of dealing with my girlfriend, co-workers and managers. I couldn't hold all this stuff in anymore. I started talking to my co-workers and managers about my girlfriend. As well as talking to my girlfriend about my co-workers and managers. Never got mad, cursed or anything, just was seeking advice cause I don't have any friends. Yes, I do understand the concept of not bringing personal issues to work.
It wasn't enough for me and my nightmares, fatigue and insomnia became so bad I wasn't sleeping for days and coming to work an 11 hour day and to do it all over again the next. I finally started to sleep but for 16 hours straight and came into work 30 minutes late. My manager flipping out on me, threatening my job and I was so overwhelmed I actually started crying. So, I went with my co-workers and I was a complete reck. They were talking to each other and making comments, I couldn't even focus on cleaning. The GMs husband showed up with lunch and then again flipping out, cursing at me and saying it looks like I haven't cleaned anything. I was quiet and to myself the rest of the day and after work began to cry again and went home.
I went in the next and brought my diagnosis paperwork and my General Manager refused to see it. She start yelling at me again and sat me down with her husband for a write-up saying I failed to take criticism and follow company policy and procedures. So, I asked what their expectations were and they didn't give detail. It was like they wanted it to be done a special way but didn't know how to say it and I asked my General Manager if she could work with me for a couple houses, which was no problem.
I came in and worked with her, she told me everything looks great and that she didn't know why my co-workers or husband were making comments about my work. This really confused me and everything seemed to start changing for the best. I wasn't talking about my life, wasn't stressed, I was getting more hours and was really happy.
I then received another call in May after I asked my girlfriend to marry me, do to my happiness and blissful new start. Once again screaming and yelling at me, super loaded on a ton of THC Edibles and the stress triggered the cycle to reset and I came into work right on time. My General Manager Flipping out that my co-worker showed up 15 minutes early and that I need to apologize for them packing everything up. *Here I admit I wanted to lose it, scream and kill everyone there.* But no, still stayed quiet.
This now started a new seek for my GMs husband for finding anything wrong he could find that my work wasn't to the companies standards. Bursting into the houses and not saying anything, just walk in and start looking through the rooms, yelling and saying "I don't want to hear anymore excuses". To be in the car and him start asking me things like "So, how long have you been depressed" "Do you take medicine?". Of course, told him just some of the story, my parents divorced and left me in a foreclose for 2 years with nothing. No electricity, no gas, no water and to take care of 4 dogs, 1 rabbit, 4 fish and 7 birds. I think this was probably the worse thing I could have ever done. I should have just stayed quiet.
I was taken back to the office and told to take the next day off and to come in the following day...I knew I was getting fired and I did. I got a call from the unemployment office now telling me I have a case cause it was a hostel work environment and I will be going to court. To me, DOES IT EVER END!!!...I just want some peace and a good job to pay my room that I rent.
Sorry this was so long but, I guess my question is. Was all this logical that I went through? Should I fight in this case or give it up? Is it going to be ruled that I have mental disorder so there for the company is free?
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