Poll (c)PTSD and Suicidal Ideation

[siniang]

Hi,

having read along on the forum for half a year now, I noticed that SI does seem to be a thing in one form or another for most sufferers (at least on here). Since this is one of the symptoms I don't share, the scientist in me was merely curious about the prevalence, particularly with cPTSD's tendency to more severe symptoms (of which SI is one).

Feel free to elaborate/discuss, but obviously this is first and foremost a tally :) What probably would be interesting are any co-morbidities.

 

[Sideways]

I've been diagnosed with a dysthymic mood disorder, and some kind of mood disorder (MDD or Bipolar II depending on which psychiatrist you ask). I have a dysthymic baseline (so, depressed is my normal).

Part of this is definitely genetic. Mood disorders, particularly depression, is rife on both sides of my family, and my paternal side had a number of suicides.

So, cPtsd isn't an irrelevant factor in my SI, but it is only part of the picture.

 

[bellbird]

I have PTSD and *had* SI, very severely at times, on and off for several years.

Currently experiencing a SI-free period and making the most of it.

But, yep, PTSD was definitely a causal factor in a large proportion of my past SI.

 

[mumstheword]

I have c-PTSD and definitely had a self destruct bent, SH and extreme risk taking behaviour, ED and very, deep, chronic depression as a teen. Many close calls. I got into drugs (hallucinogens and ethnobotanicals NOT lab made pills or powders), and alcohol, in a big way, to self medicate and then got knocked up at the tender age of 17.

I believe my procreational tendencies saved my life. Even my mother was relieved that I got pregnant, even though the Dad was/is a malignant cluster b disordered person, because I was hurtling towards an early death via various means.


Once I had kids, my commitment to them has caused me to counter every SI thought and resolve to endure. On my worst days I am.very comforted to think that, one day, this will all be over, but I refuse to indulge in any concrete planning or such, as those people born to me, just, simply, do not deserve that.

 

[jaccat]

No, but as my history is complicating by the suicide attempts of two immediate family members it gets complicated. I go against statistics, which say that makes it more likely for me, but in my case the opposite seems true.

 

[HannaD]

Ptsd with suicidal ideation. SI symptoms were worse and more intense in the past right before I sought treatment. I wasn't able to shake it completely but, they are more like fleeting thoughts that are easier to acknowledge and move on. Even if they ruminate a bit I can accept their occasional presence because, it's just a small part of my unconscious coping mechanism.

 

[Mach123]

Yes and as my memories came back, or as the walls that were holding it all in started to fail, suicide became an option along with everything and anything else to try and stop it.

I should add I don't feel like that much anymore but it never totally has gone away. IDK. IDK what I'll be able to do going forward. I'm "in process". : )

 

[Chris-duck]

I have cPTSD and SI, no comorbidities. The SI predated the PTSD diagnosis though, but currently I "only" have cPTSD, so it probably just wasn't diagnosed yet more than being due to a separate diagnosis.