My biggest thing is I'm told I'm making this happen. Is that possible?? Is there a way to stop it?
Who told you that? I"m sorry to disagree with them, but I don't think we make nightmares happen. Our mind is processing something. If you watch television, perhaps you watched a movie that set things in motion. I found that when I stopped watching television I was not so sensitive any more. A few years back I stopped listening or reading the news and that improved things for me as well.
I made the mistake of reading a headline on my computer one day about a young girl who was locked in a cage by her father and had a flashback. I was sensitive for weeks after that. It seems that everything now is all about the trauma of life. I lived enough trauma growing up, I don't need to read about what is happening in the world. That is why I have to be careful how many diary entries I read here. I can handle a little bit at a time, and let people know I hear them, but those things that go on in the world that I can't help to change, I don't want to listen to.