ILoveLife
MyPTSD Pro
Is it your responsibility to do something about it though? That's what I mean.Partially because I am not sure how to react or not react. Which makes it scarier somehow.
In these types of things, being the constant hero allows us to put ourselves last in line. As we should come first to ourselves.
Right now, you put everyone else first.
Do you protect your therapist from your life? By omitting stuff?
If so, maybe you can make a -list!- :P and just hand it over to her, of stuff you don't want to say in fear of she handling it badly or disclosing your information, or leaving therapy with you? If either of things things happened, it would be a good chance to stand up for yourself.
That's just terrible hun :hug: And you don't need to explain anything, I think that's enough for you to see that they take you for granted.She participated in bullying me as a teen, though, and it is confusing to think about for me. She kept calling us bad kids alongside her husband, and then my mom joined in. It was really hard. It gets twisty and more confusing from there, though, so I think now is not a great time to explain that.
Emotional distance is possible even staying there. Just start putting yourself first in little things. Don't go everywhere with them, don't spend your entire days with them or locked in your room running from them, etc.. Do stuff for yourself, go to a bookstore to just browse and wish you were rich so you could have them all :P At least I do that, and it's immensely helpful.