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Mach123
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It's Christmas and we are here close together in our little fishbox house by the sea. It's cozy. It feels like Christmas. We are cooking and eating. I did last minute stuff yesterday and I didn't have a bad cPTSD reaction. The traffic jams and lines in the stores make me feel like I'm suffocating. Everyone feels this as is evidenced by people turning their cars around and so on. I went the "back way" quite a bit yesterday navigating around the piece of ground in my home town (area).
I got it though, I "finished", or "made it" and that included a 12 hour ride to upstate NY and back to bring home my soldier boy who is asleep on my couch right now across the room from me in front of the Christmas tree.
The nicest thing I got for Christmas (so far) is understanding my kids have grown enough to see what their mother and I did for them growing up and they have the presence of mind to say that they appreciate it. To go along with this, our most difficult child who is a severely handicapped adult now, is doing much better because high tide raises all boats.
If there was anything I could have gotten out of all those years I would have wanted it to be that the kids had an innocent childhood, which they did. They did because we kept all the adult things between the adults and we didn't let them see. We kept a lid on it. We dealt with our issues behind closed doors, not in front of them (as much as we were able and I guess it worked.) : )
Thank God for little favors and blessings?
We are still going to run around today a little. The girls are home from their programs. Mid week Christmas is always a scheduling nightmare lol. We are having fun. It's a family time. The only other thing I want for Christmas is a warm coat. I have not had a nice warm winter coat for years and I'm a skinny with arthritis and I'm freezing always lol. I have a nice pair of Army boots (genuine ARMY issue) I'm wearing around it helps a lot and is a benifit of having a soldier boy around. We went in the PX when I picked him up but that's not the stuff I like. I like the stuff the Army issues to them lol. It's built to last for the most part.
Merry Christmas.
I got it though, I "finished", or "made it" and that included a 12 hour ride to upstate NY and back to bring home my soldier boy who is asleep on my couch right now across the room from me in front of the Christmas tree.
The nicest thing I got for Christmas (so far) is understanding my kids have grown enough to see what their mother and I did for them growing up and they have the presence of mind to say that they appreciate it. To go along with this, our most difficult child who is a severely handicapped adult now, is doing much better because high tide raises all boats.
If there was anything I could have gotten out of all those years I would have wanted it to be that the kids had an innocent childhood, which they did. They did because we kept all the adult things between the adults and we didn't let them see. We kept a lid on it. We dealt with our issues behind closed doors, not in front of them (as much as we were able and I guess it worked.) : )
Thank God for little favors and blessings?
We are still going to run around today a little. The girls are home from their programs. Mid week Christmas is always a scheduling nightmare lol. We are having fun. It's a family time. The only other thing I want for Christmas is a warm coat. I have not had a nice warm winter coat for years and I'm a skinny with arthritis and I'm freezing always lol. I have a nice pair of Army boots (genuine ARMY issue) I'm wearing around it helps a lot and is a benifit of having a soldier boy around. We went in the PX when I picked him up but that's not the stuff I like. I like the stuff the Army issues to them lol. It's built to last for the most part.
Merry Christmas.
