Colorful and hopefully optimistic but maybe hateful occasionally

[littleoc]

Good news!

Ever since I got that second radiator, which is safer and didn’t need cleaning, my bird’s poo has suddenly gotten to be much more normal!

She’s still sleeping a lot, but maybe that’s okay for an old bird. Her liver says it likes the heat, and her tail still bobs a bit but not with every single breath. So I think the heat really helped her!

Bad news:

Now it’s my sister who’s creepy ill! :/

 

[Freida]

So happy bout birdie!

Me as a plant

So this was one of the best analogys you've come up with yet!

I kinda like Fungus. I've always thought of him(?) as one of your protectors. So it would make sense he would pop up to "order" you some comfort. Because yes....your last few weeks have been hellish! So this is you telling you that it's time to slow down and do some good self care. Cause if you don't Fungus is going to step in and do it for you! :) :hug:

 

[littleoc]

So this was one of the best analogys you've come up with yet!

Thanks :P

So happy bout birdie!

Me too!! I hope she continues to improve!



Not totally certain how to respond, but did want to note, cautiously, that I felt proud? when you said that. Definitely interesting. But anyway, yeah. Maybe some actual trauma work tomorrow cuz I’ve been putting it off, then I’ll chill in the new spaces I’ve made for myself here. Good times

I should also get around to making that instruction manual on changing projector lights, lol

 

[littleoc]

My mood went downhill after my mom came home, but it wasn’t her fault. She got me defensive.

She better call that therapist. I’m getting angry.

She’s so chatty today, in a good mood, which is fine, except she is also repeating the same story over and over, not remembering she told it to me specifically, and she’s telling me a bunch of info that I don’t need to know.

I’m guessing I do that too. I’m just very busy and she accused me of thinking everything was her fault. That’s a huge trigger for me, but she doesn’t know it.

 

[ILoveLife]

repeating the same story over and over

Every time we pass through a specific tobacco machine my mom goes: Oh look, they sell cigarettes here. It's been - I'm not joking - about 10 times this has happened and last time I kinda went "Are you kidding me?!" and she was really sad, I apologized and we laughed because she said "Oh man, I really am getting old, I must drive you crazy" I replied: "No problem, it's good I'm medicated." :P

she accused me of thinking everything was her fault

You'll get out of this dynamic once you move out. Right now maybe she really thinks that, and maybe you do blame her a little because you've been so tired.
Mother-daughter dynamics are really odd, there's some low level competition always happening so blame games and guilt trips abound.

 

[littleoc]

It was a goofy conversation to her, and I didn’t overreact. I was reasonable and stated my personal fact. So that worked. I just feel bad anyway. Not sure why...

And yeah, @Sietz, it’s really is a weird dynamic. I think we are more friends than anything though. She feels motherly and I don’t fully know what to do with that. I’d never tell her that, though. It would be cruel D:

 

[littleoc]

Also, that’s hilarious

My mom has asked me several times today, “Did i tell you your nephew found his watch?” ABOUT TWENTY TIMES, YES. Lol.

Usually she tells me stuff that I was present for, it’s so frustrating.

She made a funny a bit ago though. She was saying that it’s great that I remember everything to the point of being annoying, but I always forget my lunchbox. (It has my Invisalign supplies so I can eat and then brush right after.) lol

 

[littleoc]

I can’t wait to be old enough to embarrass and annoy young people

 

[ILoveLife]

Lol yeah.

Sense of humor will save us all, I swear.

 

[littleoc]

You'll get out of this dynamic once you move out. Right now maybe she really thinks that, and maybe you do blame her a little because you've been so tired.
Mother-daughter dynamics are really odd, there's some low level competition always happening so blame games and guilt trips abound.

Thanks for this, by the way. It cheered me up, I thought I was being crazy again. :P

...you never know tho

 

[ILoveLife]

Ah, you're never crazy. I've met a lot of crazy people, you're definetely not one of them.

 

[Freida]

I can’t wait to be old enough to embarrass and annoy young people

I went to help a friend move today -- and by help I mean I stood in one place and bossed everyone around. One of the teens got mouthy (funnily - not disrespectfully) and I had to kiss him on the top of the head in front of his friends and tell him....
Suck it up buttercup - I'm old. Making you miserable and embarrassing you is is my job now! :)