Colorful and hopefully optimistic but maybe hateful occasionally

[littleoc]

Hugs back @TTC18 :hug:

 

[Teasel]

I'm sorry you've gone through all this and that your parents weren't the living parents you deserve :hug:

 

[Freida]

I wasted 2018 trying to fix this house. Scratch that. I wasted ten years. 2019 is about me moving on and not being held back by anyone else.

Ok, lets back up a bit and look at this ^^^^ Because I am so damn proud of you! Yes - you deserve to move on. You deserve to be angry and upset and to hold people accountable for their actions. What has happened to you throughout your life has been awful - but you are still loving, kind and down right fabulous.

So set those boundaries, feel those feelings, and do what is best for YOU. Because you deserve it.

 

[littleoc]

I’m okay @berlinda, no worries. But thank you :hug:

My mom is loving, she’s just very dense.

@Freida sounds like a plan!!!

:D

Also, Happy New Year’s Eve!! My word to follow for next year is “healthy.” Healthy lifestyle, healthy coping skills, healthy boundaries!

But for good measure, let’s add “independence” there too lol

 

[somerandomguy]

I hope 2019 is everything you want and everything you deserve, @littleoc.

 

[TTC18]

Happy Healthy New Year - may 2019 be all good things. All HEALTHY good things. :) :hug:

 

[littleoc]

Yeah!!!!

And right back at you @somerandomguy! :hug: :hug:

 

[littleoc]

So, a testimate to how goddamn lucky I am:

I’m looking for the TV remote (which might be a regular activity for you? It’s not here. Can you help me find it, by the way? See attachments please) and I noticed a laptop I let my mom use that she’s ignored for months but I was afraid to take with me anywhere because I was assuming she was using it — anyway, it’s bulging. It’s battery is swollen.

I freaked out and overreacted a little but it’s now in a cooler bag in the second shed (the first shed has gasoline and oil in it) far away from the main house as I can safely get it. But MAN AM I VERY HAPPY I WAS LOOKING FOR THE TV REMOTE.

I know I don’t seem lucky on here because I didn’t have a childhood because it was all 100% trauma, but my nickname in elementary school was “lucky” just because everything tends to work out really well.

Not always obviously but the kidnapping didn’t happen by chance so don’t reference that lmao

Anyway, just wanted to share! No fires here! :D

Hopefully my luckiness helps me find the remote though because ain’t no way am I reaching that TV nor changing the channel if I did manage to turn it on. Or adjusting the volume. It’s been an hour but the remote has to be SOMEWHERE around here! D:

I mean, I found an empty peanut butter jar. So I think I’m getting close at least

 

[littleoc]

HAPPY NEW YEAR’S EVE BY THE WAY!!!!

 

[Kubash16]

Oh goodness ?‍. Fairy dust to give ya extra remote finding capabilities!

 

[littleoc]

Thanks!

I tried but after going through five large stacks and getting suspiciously oily hands, I noticed I could walk around the room by climbing on the table!!

Yeah it’s dangerous but I’m 23 and a half so

Also yeah I’m still handing here because the TBI gave me quite a fear of falling... I am supposed to be walking Nestle lol

I am also afraid to turning around and realizing I’m on the wrong channel lol

I AM SMART ENOUGH TO FIGURE THIS OUT but yeah I’m not doing this next year lmao

 

[littleoc]

THE TV IS ON and I’ll know if I’m on the right channel in about three minutes!!