Colorful and hopefully optimistic but maybe hateful occasionally

[littleoc]

Thinkin about sending this to my dad, it’s an easy misunderstanding. Kids are hard, you know?

I’d think i was doing right

 

[littleoc]

Have you talked to your college about a work study program? It's a great way to get work experience in your field without actually having a job. And if you do grad school you can work as an instructor or as part of a large study.

Not, I haven’t, maybe it wouldn’t hurt tho

I kinda wouldn’t mind staying in TN but if they’ve got housing for me than f*ck it lol

 

[littleoc]

Did y’all know that brains can move when they’re alive?

 

[littleoc]

Thought that was awesome! An MRI showed it recently, crazy discovery possibly

Fat cells in fruit flies turned out to not only move but to be a part of the immune system. Humans are such interesting creatures

 

[littleoc]

I nearly got in a fight with my mom today for a stupid reason. I cried at an inappropriate moment (I was not feeling sad, or angry even), and my head started to BURN. Not sure what happened, but Nestle fixed it.

Maybe have had something to do with the blaring fire alarm. It was screaming, apparently since 4am but my mom didn’t wake me up. I couldn’t even find it at first when I went to try to disable it, and then it WOULDN’T DISABLE. It was SCREAMING and the colors got so crazy I stopped being able to see so I took it outside and then autopilot-ed the thing outside. Proceeded to get extremely pissed off at my mom being annoyed at me and i acused her of being nasty. Started treating her like one of my employees from when I was a manager, told her not to get nasty.

Stayed angry for hours. Am sleep deprived, surely played a factor. In reality it was not a big deal and I dunno why I treated her like someone I pay.

She’s upset about the house again. Long story. I am trying to not feel bad, but it makes me sad. But I did everything I could.

Went to the movies with Nestle. It was great. Realized this house is stunting my creativity.

Watching movies triggers... a thing. I get very restless and afraid to be in one place. Need to run, literally. So ran around the theater (outside in the “cold”) before Nestle started getting the moves wrong. She’s tired.

Feels great though!! Not like the other triggers!

Have to fight crazy thoughts occasionally but that’s okay too. I need to get some sleep.

My mood affects the way I walk, the way I talk, the way I react, the way I think, and more. I feel like two different people. I complained about this in 2016 to a therapist but she told me I’d integrate fine. Then I got a TBI and i just don’t talk about it with anyone because.... Brandi.

So glad she’s out of my life. I wish I’d known. I am normal though. A completely real person who gets along with other people and doesn’t have to be an outsider anymore even if I just found out that my way of socializing is different.

So cool beans!

Sorry if that makes no sense, I am running off of very little sleep. I am NEVER trusting Apple EVER AGAIN for anything work/school related. Long story. Just trust me though. My professor AND advisors gave me a f*cking award for persistence with the amount of technical difficulties.

Seems to have been hardware issues. My new computer arrived tho. It’s great

 

[littleoc]

Smoke detector, not fire! And no, it doesn’t detect carbon monoxide, no worries there. I am very sensitive to sound

 

[littleoc]

My new computer is a Dell

RIP my HP tho

 

[littleoc]

Oh also @somerandomguy I had a dream that we were at an outdoor market advertising our non-profit health insurance company and giving out pizza-shaped sleeping masks to people who signed up, lol

You had a dog but it looked like Ferdinand but his name was Skitskit

 

[littleoc]

It was because when he barked it sounded like “skit”

 

[littleoc]

I’m gonna go to bed now lol

I’m seeing my grandparents tomorrow

 

[somerandomguy]

Thinkin about sending this to my dad, it’s an easy misunderstanding. Kids are hard, you know?

Wow! :woot:

I kinda wouldn’t mind staying in TN but if they’ve got housing for me than f*ck it lol

I'm sure you've already looked into this, but does your university have campus housing you could move into?

Maybe have had something to do with the blaring fire alarm. It was screaming, apparently since 4am but my mom didn’t wake me up.

Oh my God, I'd be crying too if I had to listen to that all night!

I am NEVER trusting Apple EVER AGAIN for anything work/school related.

I hate Apple. It's overpriced crap.

Oh also @somerandomguy I had a dream that we were at an outdoor market advertising our non-profit health insurance company and giving out pizza-shaped sleeping masks to people who signed up, lol

I'm in! Let's do this ?

You had a dog

We're going to be looking for a dog very soon. I don't think I could convince SRK to name it Skitskit though.

 

[Freida]

Stayed angry for hours.

well of course you did! :hug:

In reality it was not a big deal and I dunno why I treated her like someone I pay.

Ok - lemme put my 911 hat on for a moment and lets reveiw

Smoke detectors are there to let you know if there is a FIRE in your house
They go off when they sense smoke to let you safely get out of the house before it burns down
You live in a hoarder house which means a fire can smoulder for hours and you wouldn't have known it until the house went up in flames UNLESS you have a working smoke detector
Your mom chose to ignore it for hours
Your mom didn't bother to tell you it was going off
You mom left you in a house with a smoke detector going off because she didn't want to deal with it

Of course you are angry. There are no excuses for this.
NONE. NONE. NONE,.
CHILDREN know what to do when they hear a smoke detector go off.
CHILDREN know to tell everyone in the house they hear it and to get out
YOUR MOM let you sleep thru it because she couldn't be bothered to see if there was a fire.
There are NO EXCUSES FOR THIS.