Colorful and hopefully optimistic but maybe hateful occasionally

[littleoc]

Service doggy, or doggy plain I guess, throwing up a lot today. Nothing left in her system. Gave her her liver and gallbladder meds early to try to help. She took them happily and is watching me closely and eagerly for signs of her Dino chicken nuggets being ready, so I think that’s helped a lot.

Not a lot spooks her, thankfully. But she’s does say the small reminders of her life being close to over aren’t exactly easy to get through.

Vets gave her around a year or less, and claim she’s one borrowed time. I just keep telling them “me, too — so anyway, about her symptoms” lol. They mean well, but they ain’t never seen a dog this old doing so well. She’s outlived one of the main vets there. Rip Dr. R.

She is 93 in dog years. I wonder if I’ll age like her. She looks more like 60-70, still loving to run and play. Wants to be stuffed with extra calories daily. I wonder if ill be asking for 100 nuggets when I’m already full at 90+, if I make it that long

 

[Friday]

Im sorry. It really feels that no matter what I do, I fail at it. I can’t seem to get anything right.

Dayum, talk about skill. You should hire yourself out to weddings. Good weather guaranteed by the effort you expend countering bad weather.

I’m not saying this lightly. Anything I apply myself towards? Fawked. But? I can also walk betwixt the raindrops, never getting wet, when I’m operating on instinct.

If anything you couldn’t give a f*ck over comes out glorious, and anything you apply yourself towards is f*cked? CHARGE people for your innate talents. Win/win.

 

[littleoc]

Dayum, talk about skill. You should hire yourself out to weddings. Good weather guaranteed by the effort you expend countering bad weather.

I’m not saying this lightly. Anything I apply myself towards? Fawked. But? I can also walk betwixt the raindrops, never getting wet, when I’m operating on instinct.

If anything you couldn’t give a f*ck over comes out glorious, and anything you apply yourself towards is f*cked? CHARGE people for your innate talents. Win/win.

Okay, good point

 

[littleoc]

Not thrilled about the election results. But I made a new guy :)

Anyway. Excited for my literal neo nazi neighbors to threaten my life in broad daylight while the rest of the neighborhood watches again lmaooooo

Jk, and I might go to the china buffet tomorrow for a little fun with my friend :) Gave my dog all her meds. She has lots. I've been struggling to afford them but this month I have a little more to work with thanks to back pay.

I've decided to stop having PTSD or any other mental illnesses. Which means I might be able to go see a movie this month if I can afford it. I can't afford rent but maybe I have twelve dollars in quarters

 

[littleoc]

Oh, shoot. Forgot about inflation

 

[littleoc]

If I'm quiet for a while, it's because I'm quietly stalking some other ptsd group on discord. just for the record

 

[littleoc]

I am also grocery shopping and just wanna say. when did all the frozen pizzas start looking so gross??? did i age or what

 

[littleoc]

One more unrelated thing.

Imagine being from another country that lost it's "free world" record and was pushed down to a "freedom level" number lower than Egypt or Iran. Because the politicians are literally criminals. Like, there is footage from World Renowned journalists who LIVE in Australia getting "got" so to speak, most famously friendlyjordies and the politicians fire bombing his house. And he's STILL on the run.

and then ur like. hm. hope the guy who sides with the literal gangsters in my country wins.

idk it just made me cackle, no disrespect mr. b (not on this site, no disrespect if you agree with him either, it just feels surreal and silly to me)

 

[littleoc]

O heck, just remembered that last time trump was president, the trumpers made a wiki full of names of anyone they decided were enemies and my name was in it, and it's still up hahahahahaha f*ck

 

[Friday]

A life without enemies is an unloved one. WHO one’s enemies are? Matter.

 

[littleoc]

A life without enemies is an unloved one. WHO one’s enemies are? Matter.

Thank you for that <3

 

[littleoc]

Can't wait for project 2025 to ruin my life again lol

no changes today though. just continuing with the same old routine. I don't want to think about the positives today. I just want to not exist. As usual. Again, no change.

watching more fun videos of asteroids destroying the earth. still can't believe life survived through that.