Colorful and hopefully optimistic but maybe hateful occasionally

[littleoc]

Also, if any of you happens to find my copy of The Oxford Handbook of Cuneiform Culture, let me know, I need it immediately

It could be anywhere ?

 

[littleoc]

There's a 47,000 year old worm that's come out of some "permafrost" and his friend came out too, 32,000 years old

Some "actual scientist" thinks we should "ask these ancient creatures for wisdom"

Sure just write them a letter sir

 

[littleoc]

Some scientist did that with fungus a while ago. Annoyed the crap out of me. Like, do you know how to science? You need evidence, by the way. Otherwise you're just fake news

He literally said that humans are a mutated fungus and are ancient and basically perfect, and therefore we should learn how to communicate with them.

I got to be the one to disprove him. It was fun. Not a single one of his points were viable, even if he had been writing fiction

 

[Chris-duck]

What I've always found interesting about science is if you're really determined there is always some way to skew a study to make it fit what you wanna say.

Obviously not if you wanna be a -good- scientist but pick an argument and there will be studies somewhere saying you're right.

 

[littleoc]

You're not wrong, haha

I think fleas are space aliens, prove me wrong!

 

[Chris-duck]

Okay! I'm on it! :P

 

[littleoc]

Actually some people claim that tardigrade DNA is alien and that they aren't evolutionary related to other species on Earth

It's been proven wrong like 1763 times but the people who say our President is a lizard and that Sumerian gods were aliens who enslaved the human race but then left for no reason (like the grasshoppers in A Bug's Life?) seem to really like alien tardigrades

Dude I wish we had aliens on Earth, that would be cool

Yes, space alien fleas!!!!

 

[Chris-duck]

I actually legit found a study saying fleas came from space btw. It was a bit vague and complicated at the same time tbf. But let's take it n run with it ?

 

[littleoc]

Hahaha! It's definitely true then!!

 

[littleoc]

Two things

(1) my sister thinks that humans have created everything already and that we can't invent any more. I'm so confused by this logic. We live in an information revolution, everything is changing all the time, and people are twisting up old things just like ever. hmmmm

that and past societies created a lot of stuff we're still rediscovering, so we're not exactly at the peak of humanity here

(2) I'm very bothered by holes in my memory.

It makes some sense to have them now, even if I'm not used to them, because of the injuries.

One is the week long amnesia I had when no one was taking care of me. Apparently I helped someone break into the place I manage

And then that person was afraid to leave me in there because she was a bit unsure that I was in my right mind so she took me to the cafeteria and got me soup

Also I do remember waking up to a panicking service dog who was barking (the sound was very painful) but I did not know that I was passed out nor that I rinsed my bleeding head under water for forty minutes in the grossest bathroom available in the entire place, nor did I agree to go to the ER despite being so dizzy that I couldn't stand (I was not told that it would be covered by worker's comp)

my favorite fact is the me who helps people break into the work place lol

and to think the doctor didn't believe me that I was having problems! i'll never not be mad about that. It's too bad that I didn't have this diary then, because it was probably very annoying to my friends when my insurance-given doctor closed my case with the insurance. Not that it matters much


But I'm also noticing other holes in my memory that don't have good explanations. In the trash beyond the dining room table, I noticed an aquarium, and I was like, "Huh, that's weird. We had an animal in here." And my memory worked like it should for a second. I recognized it was Buddy the Newt's cage, a newt who was small and called Buddy, even though he (sorry) drowned his two friends. And we joked that he had absorbed the lifespans of his two friends

and then there was a HUGE hole where there shouldn't be

I don't know why we have his cage, or why it's in the dining room, or why I remember discovering copepods in there, or why I remember not cleaning out the cage when no one was in it. There's a huge, huge gap that shouldn't be there. I don't know where Buddy is and that doesn't make any sense, and it's freaking me out

I remember every single other animal fine.
Raisin passed away after Oatmeal, who died quietly in her sleep after her spine began deteriorating.
Cupcake passed away normally, Thunder died in a way that haunts my dreams more than rape does, Cheesepuff got dehydrated but was old, Traveller died of old age, Fudge died of some mysterious thing I wasn't able to help with ( I don't want to talk about it though), Pippi died after a head injury, Blue died of old age, Brasil died of old age, Sorrel died of old age and wobbly hedgehog syndrome complications, Uno died of a heart attack or stroke, Zebra died of

actually yeah I'm going to quit listing all 560something of them. The point is I remember all 560something pets. (My dad hoarded animals. Especially illegal ones.)

Some of them I had to watch be given away, and I found out I was lied to them about where they were going and it was my fault because I caused the divorce (I didn't blame myself for that though, I was very happy he was gone)

And I remember my experiences with them just fine. And I remember Buddy great, because he broke a record in newt lifespan.

So.... where is he? it's giving me the worst headache trying to remember. Which is strange

The brain doesn't have pain receptors (obviously) and Nestle is telling me to chill, so I must have done something seizurey but for goodness sake where is that newt and why can't I remember? I'm the one who found all the animals after they died. I helped some die. f*ck, I helped a human die at one point, or tried, didn't work at all which was actually MORE disturbing than if he had just died, but I absolutely don't want to talk about that. I want to know why I can't remember my newt. I love that newt. Is he dead? Did I bury him? Whatcha doing, brain?

This is not nearly as funny as helping people break into my workplace while I had amnesia. That's hilarious

 

[littleoc]

Well I guess I gave myself a migraine trying to remember my newt because now light is hurting my eyes and I'm seeing things, so I'm gonna hit the hay while I still can I guess

I bet my newt is with my missing book

 

[littleoc]

He was a great newt you guys. He liked to open his mouth and smile when a human walked by