Colorful and hopefully optimistic but maybe hateful occasionally

[littleoc]

Have a great night :hug: I will probably be able to actually browse the site tomorrow

It’s all good

 

[ILoveLife]

Good night :hug:

 

[littleoc]

It happens to me.

Were you forced to drink alcohol during your abuse?

Yes but it’s really hard to talk about.

Less hard to talk about is my dad, who is an alcoholic and loved vodka. Liked the burn. Let me try things as a toddler. Probably not a malicious intent except to make us be quieter.

I’m glad I’m not the only one though. I tried to explain to my mom and she was uncertain. Then something happened that ruined the evening for everyone so we never finished the discussion lol (when that proctor insisted I sleep in the common room instead of him doing his job)

 

[littleoc]

Not that I’m expecting you to remember details of things :P

 

[ILoveLife]

I don't know if it's related. I usually think it is in my case.

In any case, if you don't enjoy it, it's better not to drink at all.

Alcohol leaves me so anxious, it's really impossible to function.

 

[littleoc]

Good night :hug:

Good day for you! :hug:

 

[littleoc]

Good plan.

I usually say that alcohol doesn’t mix with my medication, because it doesn’t.

Last time I said I suspected it made me anxious, I got called a wimp.

You’d think it’d be the college kids saying that, but no. lol

 

[ILoveLife]

:( You're not a wimp to not drink alcohol. That's actually braver than to drink it. Self-protective. :hug:

 

[TTC18]

Last time I said I suspected it made me anxious, I got called a wimp.

I'm not sure why people feel like they should pressure other people to drink. I get it too. I don't get anxious, I just don't like the smell or taste of alcohol. And - my x was an alcoholic so the smell of alcohol reminds me of him, so yech. But no one should be calling you a wimp for that. Drinking isn't a sign of strength or whatever, lol.

This was really helpful to read, by the way. Do you think it’s anxiety?

It's a complex mix of denial, and anxiety -fear of people, and fear of messing something up, and fear of making the wrong choice. It's really uncomfortable. Literally the whole 3 years, I have been stressing about it. Took it in recently because of a leak, and was told oh no because you haven't been taking care of it, it'll cost 700$ to fix. So I bought some stuff on the internet to put in and make the leak stop. And now - I'm afraid to take it somewhere else for the oil change because they'll find out I put stuff in, instead of paying someone 700$ to take the car apart and change the seal. ? But at least the leak stopped. ??

Nestle had an accident (tripped?) and needs emergency care in the morning. She broke a nail but it’s right by the quick and she says it hurts. I don’t have the tools to help. If I did I would trust myself pretty well with some supervision

How's she doing?

 

[Freida]

The alcohol thing could also be because of your head injury...my friend with a tbi had a similar reaction. Don't let anyone try to bully you into drinking. That's way more about their problems with alcohol than your problems without it.

Hope Nestle is ok!!!

 

[Chris-duck]

The alcohol thing could also be because of your head injury

This. I don't have a TBI, but I was basically concussed for about a year, and the affect alcohol had on me was insane. I'd either have a drink and get crazy anxious, or I'd pass out after one shot or whatever. Like alcohol + head injuries is a bad combo. Always. And it's also unpredictable what "bad combo" means. Don't feel pressured to drink anyway, like when people care if you're drinking or not, it's more an issue of whether you'll notice how much they're drinking, or not. Stay safe :hug:

 

[Kubash16]

Plus different alcohols affect different people different ways. For instance, Dan could have a beer and be totally relaxed and goofy. Give him a glass of whiskey and watch the f*ck out.