Colorful and hopefully optimistic but maybe hateful occasionally

[littleoc]

Sorry I’m not on y’all’s threads, by the way. I’m a bit stressed. A lot going on.

Nestle had an accident (tripped?) and needs emergency care in the morning. She broke a nail but it’s right by the quick and she says it hurts. I don’t have the tools to help. If I did I would trust myself pretty well with some supervision

 

[ILoveLife]

Oh. Poor Nestle! :( I'm sorry.

More than okay to not be on the diaries, we do survive without you :hug: (occasionally!)

 

[bellbird]

Oh. Poor Nestle! :( I'm sorry.

More than okay to not be on the diaries, we do survive without you :hug: (occasionally!)

Ditto-ing both points!
Take care of yourself and Nessie first, we completely understand :hug:

 

[littleoc]

Perfect!!

and it’s hopefully okay. My mom and I cleaned her up and got it covered so she won’t mess with it, and we gave her a slice of cheese and some Benedryl so she can sleep

 

[littleoc]

Thanks guys :hug:

 

[littleoc]

She saw the cats again, the ones I’m gonna adopt when I move out, so that’s fun

Taz did a more confident hiss at her, then sniffed her nose, so I’d say that’s going well

 

[littleoc]

Um... for the record, me losing my temper at Nestle and her having a broken to the quick nail are not related

I was upset cuz she wouldn’t poop when I asked her too. She’s trained to go on command but she hates wet grass. I got upset cuz I’m overwhelmed with things, not because she did anything wrong

 

[ILoveLife]

I'm going to say something. Not criticism whatsoever. I think you should start reading up on coping skills. Ways to be okay while being there.

Like, my mom has been all over the place lately and I'm overwhelmed too, I can't go on to lash out at the pets right? It's not fair to them, and there is really no excuse.

Like I said, I do understand. Yesterday Flash was trying to get my attention and I got annoyed. I never get annoyed with her, ever. But I did and felt bad. That's on me, not on what's around me. Right?

 

[littleoc]

I’m pretty good at coping skills. :) I’ve been in therapy since I was 13. Which was a huge advantage for me.

But anyway. I must have misworded something. I’m not directing anger at my dog, is what I meant. I get angry at my mom for doing that to the cat, and at my brother in law for being rude to my dog.

I think it’s more of the same issue with the “my brain thinks Nestle is a part of our body” thing. I don’t feel like feeling the story right now, but it’s funny. Not creepy. :p

But thank you for caring about it enough to bring it up. I appreciate it :hug:

Currently I am playing video games. I saved a city after five characters tried to convince me it was lost :p

Then I’m reading some Robert Heinlein before bed. I consider that coping, cuz it distracts the logical part of the brain ?

That’s an awfully pink brain, ew lol

 

[littleoc]

I barely even drank the wine and I still got that doom-end-of-the-world feeling. Surely it’s not the alcohol itself then?

Does anyone else get insanely anxious to the point of disability with like half a glass or maybe four sips of wine? I’m thinking that’s not likely?

The only time I can think of that I didn’t drink but had the strong anxiety is when I had to take my medical leave. Sorority sister ended up bringing me food out of worry. I never wanted to be seen like that, but I was hungry enough to accept.

I’m fine, by the way. I think I should avoid alcohol a little more. I shouldn’t be accepting drinks from an alcoholic anyway. I might be encouraging him.

 

[littleoc]

People on both sides of my family are alcoholics, including my dad and one of my closest cousins. So that’s a reason I could comfortably share for not wanting a drink. Even if it’s expensive wine.

 

[ILoveLife]

Does anyone else get insanely anxious to the point of disability with like half a glass or maybe four sips of wine? I’m thinking that’s not likely?

It happens to me.

Were you forced to drink alcohol during your abuse?