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Colorful and hopefully optimistic but maybe hateful occasionally

I guess it's like in our dreams?

That our mind takes things and distorts them a bit?

Cos fairies and elves are like *tiny* humans with magic powers.

And I guess dragons are *huge* lizards with magic powers.

And nature makes all types of animals, huge ones, tiny ones...

So just as our dream brains are crazy creative and make up the weirdest things...

Nature/ evolution is also crazy creative and makes up the weirdest things...

And sometimes that happens to converge in a dragon/ dinosaur fluke :D
 
I'll talk about important things later. I'm trying to stay light.

Sorry for being absent for the conversation! I was taking Brandi's birthday off so I could avoid trauma talk altogether. I'll talk about that stuff later.

When I feel a little stable-r.

@Sophy lol you do not want to get me started on the history of humans as a species or as the inventors of civilization! I have enough words to fill books, and I am not even sure where to begin with your statement! It's one of my favorite topics to debate! Dragons!!!!

My favorite dragon is the first one in recorded human history, and y'all better help me bury this post because the books I write hover on themes related to it like all the time, lol.

Oof, I'm not sure I should rant about it though? Might accidentally lecture? oh man, I might get too excited and write a post that's ten pages long... I will try REALLY REALLY hard not to get carried away. Because I love that type of question you asked! Because the answer is so debatable!

When my grandfather fled Russia, he had people on the ship who also became important to history later (please don't look up the ship), and one of them was Samuel Noah Kramer, who is definitely one of my most influential teachers ever. Was. He passed away. But his books and philosophies didn't. I've read so many of them, many based on the origins of Judaism. He grew up in a religious family too (pretty much all the refugees did, it was the reason they were refugees), and his books study the origins of the Bible and Old Testament in ways that some scholars were afraid to even get into.

(Modern scholars seem to be pretty okay with it! It's important stuff!)

For example, know the Book of Job? Did you know that the monster, the Leviathan, is a heavily equated with Kur, the first dragon in history? :D :D :D

I won't get into it. It's fantastic though.

Anyway, dragons have been around for seemingly as long as human history. Several archaeologists have pointed out that humans in pre-history (who were incredibly intelligent) may have dug up dinosaur bones, and then described stories to explain their existence. Some biologists say that some reptiles seriously resemble dragons, like crocodiles, and may have been the basis of the myths. Or, someone stumbled into one and thought it was a dragon. (They look like dragons. Especially at night, when their eyes glow... like fire.) And, some human behaviorists claim that there's a secret instinct of apes in general to fear large reptiles in particular -- I disagree strongly with that one, because fear of reptiles seems to be mostly a learned thing? Maybe cultural?

Cultural evolution is a thing, though. You have to remember, humans are a species with an incredibly traumatic past as a species. And it had nothing to do with reptiles. Humans almost went extinct and there were less than 1000 individuals left at one point. Notice how all apes are kind of rare? Earth is not very ape-friendly, unless there are special circumstances. Or, amazing ingenuity to survive.

Probably, those very few humans who were left had stories to help them cope. I imagine dragons played into that, but I like to think that those dragons were nature spirits, like Kur. Kur is sort of a spirit of chaos and instability, which is why he protects the Primordial Waters from which the universe was created from (and why, when he was slayed, the waters began flooding everything -- but there are tons of different versions of Kur being slayed so you have to be careful, because sometimes "kur" is symbolic for something else completely). Kur was a representation of the universe itself, and therefore he counts as a nature spirit of a type, and he's one that shows up even in the modern world. You can find dragons globally that match his description, though he's depicted differently too.

But yeah, no one seems to know why every culture has dragons for sure. It's a neat mystery!

</rant>
Yay, I managed to not talk your faces off :P

I'll come back to be more serious later.

I love talking about religions' history, though, and dragons. Great topics!

Fun fact of the day: The Bible and Old Testament clearly suggest the existence of other gods. Abraham was a true monotheist, but most Jews were not, and Abraham makes of point of going against it. The Jews believed that the other nation's city gods did exist, but that they weren't as strong as their God. :)

There's more to it but that'll do for now, because I have no idea if y'all are the right audience for that or not! Last time I mentioned the gay king in the Bible here I got a couple of private messages from members who were disturbed so I'm trying really hard not to make people uncomfortable. If I make you uncomfortable, I'm sorry!
 
If I make you uncomfortable, I'm sorry!
It's your diary :hug:
You can use this space however you need to. If we don't want to read something, then it's up to us to skip that post :)
I was taking Brandi's birthday off so I could avoid trauma talk altogether.
So proud of you for this!!!
? self care unicorn coming your way ?
 
It's your diary :hug:
You can use this space however you need to. If we don't want to read something, then it's up to us to skip that post :)
Oh, right, lol

It's different if I'm around the forums, I suppose! lol

So proud of you for this!!!
? self care unicorn coming your way ?

YAS I GOT A UNICORN

Did I tell y'all I have a stuffed unicorn? And two stuffed unicorn pigs?

It was a pretty great day, though! I experimented with driving on the Interstate at 70 miles per hour. I DID IT. IT WORKED!!!!!

Only problem -- Dory is still mute. I am going to take her to the mechanic to see if the jammed horn can be fixed and then re-wired. Unfortunately, it will cost around 150-200$.... but I don't want to be mute on the Interstate. People in Tennessee LOVE to cut people off.... or just change lanes without looking. So hopefully it won't get too expensive but it will be worth it anyway to be able to honk at people whenever it's needed!
 
It's different if I'm around the forums, I suppose! lol
I guess :) I mean if you're posting about Christianity on an Atheist thread (first example that came to mind), that's probably not a good idea, but as long as the posts fit with the Community Constitution, then I'm sure that's fine too :)
I experimented with driving on the Interstate at 70 miles per hour. I DID IT. IT WORKED!!!!!
Yeah!!!!!
YOU DID IT.
Only problem -- Dory is still mute
Awww, Dory!
You'll find your voice soon, little bug.
 
I'll talk about important things later. I'm trying to stay light.

Sorry for being absent for the conversation! I was taking Brandi's birthday off so I could avoid trauma talk altogether. I'll talk about that stuff later.

When I feel a little stable-r.

@Sophy lol you do not want to get me started on the history of humans as a species or as the inventors of civilization! I have enough words to fill books, and I am not even sure where to begin with your statement! It's one of my favorite topics to debate! Dragons!!!!

My favorite dragon is the first one in recorded human history, and y'all better help me bury this post because the books I write hover on themes related to it like all the time, lol.

Oof, I'm not sure I should rant about it though? Might accidentally lecture? oh man, I might get too excited and write a post that's ten pages long... I will try REALLY REALLY hard not to get carried away. Because I love that type of question you asked! Because the answer is so debatable!

When my grandfather fled Russia, he had people on the ship who also became important to history later (please don't look up the ship), and one of them was Samuel Noah Kramer, who is definitely one of my most influential teachers ever. Was. He passed away. But his books and philosophies didn't. I've read so many of them, many based on the origins of Judaism. He grew up in a religious family too (pretty much all the refugees did, it was the reason they were refugees), and his books study the origins of the Bible and Old Testament in ways that some scholars were afraid to even get into.

(Modern scholars seem to be pretty okay with it! It's important stuff!)

For example, know the Book of Job? Did you know that the monster, the Leviathan, is a heavily equated with Kur, the first dragon in history? :D:D:D

I won't get into it. It's fantastic though.

Anyway, dragons have been around for seemingly as long as human history. Several archaeologists have pointed out that humans in pre-history (who were incredibly intelligent) may have dug up dinosaur bones, and then described stories to explain their existence. Some biologists say that some reptiles seriously resemble dragons, like crocodiles, and may have been the basis of the myths. Or, someone stumbled into one and thought it was a dragon. (They look like dragons. Especially at night, when their eyes glow... like fire.) And, some human behaviorists claim that there's a secret instinct of apes in general to fear large reptiles in particular -- I disagree strongly with that one, because fear of reptiles seems to be mostly a learned thing? Maybe cultural?

Cultural evolution is a thing, though. You have to remember, humans are a species with an incredibly traumatic past as a species. And it had nothing to do with reptiles. Humans almost went extinct and there were less than 1000 individuals left at one point. Notice how all apes are kind of rare? Earth is not very ape-friendly, unless there are special circumstances. Or, amazing ingenuity to survive.

Probably, those very few humans who were left had stories to help them cope. I imagine dragons played into that, but I like to think that those dragons were nature spirits, like Kur. Kur is sort of a spirit of chaos and instability, which is why he protects the Primordial Waters from which the universe was created from (and why, when he was slayed, the waters began flooding everything -- but there are tons of different versions of Kur being slayed so you have to be careful, because sometimes "kur" is symbolic for something else completely). Kur was a representation of the universe itself, and therefore he counts as a nature spirit of a type, and he's one that shows up even in the modern world. You can find dragons globally that match his description, though he's depicted differently too.

But yeah, no one seems to know why every culture has dragons for sure. It's a neat mystery!

</rant>
Yay, I managed to not talk your faces off :p

I'll come back to be more serious later.

I love talking about religions' history, though, and dragons. Great topics!

Fun fact of the day: The Bible and Old Testament clearly suggest the existence of other gods. Abraham was a true monotheist, but most Jews were not, and Abraham makes of point of going against it. The Jews believed that the other nation's city gods did exist, but that they weren't as strong as their God. :)

There's more to it but that'll do for now, because I have no idea if y'all are the right audience for that or not! Last time I mentioned the gay king in the Bible here I got a couple of private messages from members who were disturbed so I'm trying really hard not to make people uncomfortable. If I make you uncomfortable, I'm sorry!
All I can say to this is OMG I would love to sit and listen to you talk about this stuff for hours, I think. Fascinating!!!!! I remember when I started delving into religious history - that's some of the most fascinating dusty-book reading I've ever done. Someday when I'm settled I'm going to have a giant library. And I'm going to read ALL the books.
It was a pretty great day, though! I experimented with driving on the Interstate at 70 miles per hour. I DID IT. IT WORKED!!!!!
I am jumping up and down in my chair cheering for you! I knew you could do it!!!!!!!!! HURRAH!
Only problem -- Dory is still mute.
If it were summer, I'd suggest buying a bike horn for 5$ and zip-tying it to your rear-view mirror. Window down, and HONK HONK as needed. ?
 
I'll talk about important things later. I'm trying to stay light.

Sorry for being absent for the conversation! I was taking Brandi's birthday off so I could avoid trauma talk altogether. I'll talk about that stuff later.

When I feel a little stable-r.

@Sophy lol you do not want to get me started on the history of humans as a species or as the inventors of civilization! I have enough words to fill books, and I am not even sure where to begin with your statement! It's one of my favorite topics to debate! Dragons!!!!

My favorite dragon is the first one in recorded human history, and y'all better help me bury this post because the books I write hover on themes related to it like all the time, lol.

Oof, I'm not sure I should rant about it though? Might accidentally lecture? oh man, I might get too excited and write a post that's ten pages long... I will try REALLY REALLY hard not to get carried away. Because I love that type of question you asked! Because the answer is so debatable!

When my grandfather fled Russia, he had people on the ship who also became important to history later (please don't look up the ship), and one of them was Samuel Noah Kramer, who is definitely one of my most influential teachers ever. Was. He passed away. But his books and philosophies didn't. I've read so many of them, many based on the origins of Judaism. He grew up in a religious family too (pretty much all the refugees did, it was the reason they were refugees), and his books study the origins of the Bible and Old Testament in ways that some scholars were afraid to even get into.

(Modern scholars seem to be pretty okay with it! It's important stuff!)

For example, know the Book of Job? Did you know that the monster, the Leviathan, is a heavily equated with Kur, the first dragon in history? :D:D:D

I won't get into it. It's fantastic though.

Anyway, dragons have been around for seemingly as long as human history. Several archaeologists have pointed out that humans in pre-history (who were incredibly intelligent) may have dug up dinosaur bones, and then described stories to explain their existence. Some biologists say that some reptiles seriously resemble dragons, like crocodiles, and may have been the basis of the myths. Or, someone stumbled into one and thought it was a dragon. (They look like dragons. Especially at night, when their eyes glow... like fire.) And, some human behaviorists claim that there's a secret instinct of apes in general to fear large reptiles in particular -- I disagree strongly with that one, because fear of reptiles seems to be mostly a learned thing? Maybe cultural?

Cultural evolution is a thing, though. You have to remember, humans are a species with an incredibly traumatic past as a species. And it had nothing to do with reptiles. Humans almost went extinct and there were less than 1000 individuals left at one point. Notice how all apes are kind of rare? Earth is not very ape-friendly, unless there are special circumstances. Or, amazing ingenuity to survive.

Probably, those very few humans who were left had stories to help them cope. I imagine dragons played into that, but I like to think that those dragons were nature spirits, like Kur. Kur is sort of a spirit of chaos and instability, which is why he protects the Primordial Waters from which the universe was created from (and why, when he was slayed, the waters began flooding everything -- but there are tons of different versions of Kur being slayed so you have to be careful, because sometimes "kur" is symbolic for something else completely). Kur was a representation of the universe itself, and therefore he counts as a nature spirit of a type, and he's one that shows up even in the modern world. You can find dragons globally that match his description, though he's depicted differently too.

But yeah, no one seems to know why every culture has dragons for sure. It's a neat mystery!

</rant>
Yay, I managed to not talk your faces off :p

I'll come back to be more serious later.

I love talking about religions' history, though, and dragons. Great topics!

Fun fact of the day: The Bible and Old Testament clearly suggest the existence of other gods. Abraham was a true monotheist, but most Jews were not, and Abraham makes of point of going against it. The Jews believed that the other nation's city gods did exist, but that they weren't as strong as their God. :)

There's more to it but that'll do for now, because I have no idea if y'all are the right audience for that or not! Last time I mentioned the gay king in the Bible here I got a couple of private messages from members who were disturbed so I'm trying really hard not to make people uncomfortable. If I make you uncomfortable, I'm sorry!

Thank you - that's wonderful!!! :hug: ??????

And I don't find any of what you wrote offensive. As others have said this is your diary. Surely we've got enough respect and enough free speech to be able to gently say what we think or believe on this forum. And our diaries should especially be the space on the forum where we're allowed to say what we think.

Everyone's free to pick and choose what they read and discuss.

I'll have to read your post again after work - there were sooo many interesting bits :)
Perfect nerd-brain food :laugh:
 
Hope you're having a good day, @littleoc .
I saw an orange flower that made me think of you.
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You know what’s funny, @bellbird? I checked here (while not logged in) RIGHT as you posted that, lol.

And thank you!!! I love them ?? (Do you have an Instagram?)

Anyway, yes, I am having a good day. Trying to take it easy. I have started having flashbacks specifically when backing out of my sister’s driveway. Also my perfume is now a trigger I guess, since I apparently used it too much while trying to drown out poo smells. At this point it’s frequently my own dog’s farts so I hope the humor of that will continue to cheer me up slightly.

Also, I’ve noticed that after I drive, I have to sit in my car for several minutes. Trying to concentrate for long periods of time seems to be taking a lot of energy. No one warned me about that. So I’m going to guess that’s not the PTSD but the TBI? Not sure. Could be a mix. Stress itself is exhausting. But also Nestle can’t remind me to be present every fifteen minutes if she’s in the backseat. I’ve been using the radio and talking to make sure I’m not getting too still. When I’m no longer using Invisalign, candy or gum could help too

Also I’m really glad I got the horn checked. We knew it was jammed and that’s why it was disconnected, but it turns out to have been related to a broken switch that’s also connected to the airbag. So, uh, yeah I’m going to pay cash money to get that fixed. Lol.

For now, Dory’s still mute, tho. The part will come in from elsewhere later. There were no new parts available unfortunately. So I will still be mute on the Interstate tomorrow but whatever.

The mechanics told me the airbag would “probably” still deploy, so that’s cool lol
 
Also @Sophy thank you for the links!

I am not sure how I’d attach them, though... my rear view mirror doesn’t have a neck D:

Would be PERFECT if it did, though, because my door doesn’t close with a full seal so the wire wouldn’t even be crushed! But oh well, I’m paying for the new switch anyway so it’s fine

Also, I did get to hear the horn today after they reconnected it! It wouldn’t turn off until they disconnected it again :D

Pretty relatable. I used to be unable to talk and then when I could I would NOT shut up. I actually haven’t really shut up since, I’m still talking :D
 

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