Colorful and hopefully optimistic but maybe hateful occasionally

[littleoc]

My mom was REALLY mad at me for making her go to the ER again, but I drove her there anyway. Now time to do homework at 5:23am. She’s staying overnight (she’s okay). I’m too sleepy to elaborate honestly lol

 

[somerandomguy]

:hug:

 

[Ronin]

(Care), Lil OC.

How youre taking care of your Mom is admirable. Hope you get some solid sleep.

 

[Freida]

Very proud of you to do what was needed - no matter how much she fussed! :hug:

 

[bellbird]

You're the best. And you're such a blessing to those who have the good fortune to cross paths with you ❤

 

[littleoc]

Thanks, guys :)

She lived again. She's home acting normal. She was mad about going to the ER because she was confused. Actually pretty funny in hindsight. She was mostly angry because I wouldn't bring her any orange juice. Instead I made her go to the ER.

It was a UTI. Probably from being wheel-chair bound for a month straight. It made her very confused. She's back to normal now though. If not a little lonely. I'll figure something out.

 

[bellbird]

Glad she's ok.
How are you? ❤

 

[littleoc]

Glad she's ok.
How are you? ❤

Me too. :D

And, honestly, pretty great, all things considered! A bit tired but I’m about to nap so that’ll help, lol.

My work is not ideal but I love the people I work with and they appreciate me, so that’s a boost :D

Mostly just sad that my mom was afraid of her doctor and is lacking a social life! I’m guessing I can ask around for SOMETHING she could do besides sit around at home all the time. I’m taking her to run errands with me tomorrow (later today??) so that’ll be something lol

I hope you’re doing well!!!! I haven’t had time to chat/call but I saw how stressed you’ve been and you should know that you’re a beautiful person who’s going to push through!

I am somewhat sleep deprived so sorry for any typos!

Speaking of people though, @somerandomguy I keep having dreams about your cat being a social media star and I have no idea why ?

But anyway, back on topic, I’m doing well. Exhausted and stressed and very worried about finances, but I currently have support so that helps a lot. I did not expect to be head of household out of nowhere. The power shift was so.... sudden, that I threw away my theapists sticky-note that said “you are NOT the parent.” I should probably go but go back to therapy to discuss the new dynamics?? Because obviously I’m still not the parent but now I have to ask medical questions constantly and my mom is afraid to tell me too much for fear of being like HER mom who was abusive and told her way too much all the time ?‍

Life needs a manual. Would appreciate that 100000%

 

[littleoc]

I paid the bills for this month except the phone bill, so I’m sure that’s made me feel much better. Being in charge of finances, though stressful in itself, cured my constant fear of not knowing what was going on with my mom’s finances. So that was awesome.

My mom was clearly very confused! But she had detailed notes on her bills because she was beginning to not be able to keep track of things like that, so it made it easy for me to quickly take over. I should probably do some sort of paperwork to get her bills transferred to my name now that I’m paying them.

 

[somerandomguy]

Glad to hear things are looking up @littleoc! I think being in charge of things is going to do you a lot of good!

My cat does deserve to be a social media star!

 

[littleoc]

I am a little overwhelmed but I will sleep and see if that helps :)

 

[littleoc]

It did not help, but at least I tried ?? ?

I’m gonna have to see that therapist soon. I’d talk about it here but I’m at work. So anxious I just made coffee but without the coffee. Filter hot water, yum!