Colorful and hopefully optimistic but maybe hateful occasionally

[littleoc]

Doing really really badly tonight

 

[Rose White]

I see you @littleoc … with you

 

[littleoc]

Doing better again

Turns out I forgot to take my asthma medicine yesterday, and I get suicidal about 12 hours after not taking it typically

Kind of wondering if there are other meds besides that one because despite the suicidal thoughts, I'm hoping to beat depression and outlive my best friend or at least not die of mental illness if I can help it. And that really increases my risks

Almost like I had a service dog to help with that :( I mean, she's still alive, but I have obviously not been retraining anything because the vets didnt think she would make it to this summer last October or whenever that was. They'll a little baffled now but we are winging it

 

[littleoc]

She has also outlived the vet clinic's mascot cat, who was 14 (she is 15).....

My friends/siblings and I have been joking that nestle is stealing live forces to extend her life

 

[littleoc]

Oh also my dad is trying to pull the "wow I inherited the house :v I was a very good father and the only reason you came out intelligent and successful is because of the cool way I raised you :)" thing again

 

[littleoc]

He said he has a right to "break down the door and break in" at any time since my mother died (he doesn't) and to expect him. I called the police to "make sure it was legal" (it's not) (but ofc the dispatcher couldn't say that bc laws) (but now they know to listen for his mayhem at least) (and/or if I get murdered he'll be the easiest suspect ever, even if they can't arrest him again)

 

[littleoc]

He used to scare me but I would like to beat him back for once now. Probably better to just call cops of necessary though -_- guess we'll see. He said he was planning to come by Thursday, which is very specific so we'll see if he actually does that or picks a different secret day.

I would be so incredibly ashamed to act like that. No matter how bad I feel at least I'm not him

 

[littleoc]

I did also inform a trusted neighbor to look out for suspicious activity. They said he was sorry he's doing this during this difficult time and I told them that to be honest I was kind of expecting it.

 

[littleoc]

I am just very glad he can't offend my mom at this point

 

[Rose White]

Probably better to just call cops of necessary though

Yes. And good job calling the police to ask them about that. Wise of you—no need to get pulled into that karmic shit.

 

[Freida]

not sure how im going to pay my mom's bills. pretty sure I can't use her money from disability or ssi even though she got it on the 3rd, and died on the 4th.

was gonna say something else but I forgot

Creditors can't go after family members so double check but this shouldn't be a thing. The only way the bills can be paid is out of the estate, and if there is no estate they just let them go. Bills don't pass to family members just because they are family or because they lived there.

He said he has a right to "break down the door and break in" at any time since my mother died (he doesn't) and to expect him. I called the police to "make sure it was legal" (it's not) (but ofc the dispatcher couldn't say that bc laws) (but now they know to listen for his mayhem at least) (and/or if I get murdered he'll be the easiest suspect ever, even if they can't arrest him again)

Yes. Call 911 ASAP. Like the minute you see him. Especially since you've already had it put into the premise history that you are afraid he will show up. Dont talk to him, don't open the door, don't even acknowledge him. Do.not.delay calling. Remember, they still have to drive there which might take some time. Get on the phone with dispatch and keep the line open. If it turns out to be nothing that's fine - better safe than sorry.

 

[littleoc]

He chickened out Did not show :)