Charbella
Sponsor
First I have an extensive history of CSA. No one who lived with me so therefore no reason to say I depended on these people. One guy is much longer than the rest and involves…everything. Some family, most not living close.
My question is how do you come to terms with wanting the people in your life, while it was happening? How do you get past the roadblock?
Recently I’ve been working with a memory that is intense and after all the abuse she’s riding home with him thinking how mad she is and then being afraid he will leave. I’m so angry this second thought even comes into play and I know this hurdle is at the core of putting the past in the past and leaving it there but nothing anyone seems yo say changes the cold hard fact that she wanted him.
Hoping others have some perspective as I could surely use some.
My question is how do you come to terms with wanting the people in your life, while it was happening? How do you get past the roadblock?
Recently I’ve been working with a memory that is intense and after all the abuse she’s riding home with him thinking how mad she is and then being afraid he will leave. I’m so angry this second thought even comes into play and I know this hurdle is at the core of putting the past in the past and leaving it there but nothing anyone seems yo say changes the cold hard fact that she wanted him.
Hoping others have some perspective as I could surely use some.