Confused, Irritated, and Tired

[sigh]

I was talking to my boyfriend about my father. We were joking about what a strange person he was. Then I said something about giving him a present. I often do something like this, where I turn on a dime and it seems as if I must be lying or crazy. My judgment changes, I attribute emotions to the wrong people. I believe this is pretty normal for what I've been through.

My boyfriend gets angry--he's been doing this lately when something like this has happened. He says he gets frustrated when I change my POV on the fly like that. He's not really accepting me the way he used to (before he got on this new psych med--it's changed his personality). I have just come to shut my mouth? Is that what I should be doing after all of this??

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[Seeking_Nirvana]

I'm not sure what you should do. This is a tough call with him being on a new medication, while you need to be able to express yourself.

I read that a person with Borderline Personality Disorder change their views very quickly. I don't think I seen that as a symptom of PTSD though.

Have you discussed this with him? Maybe you could show him some information on why you change your POV on the turn of a dime and when he sees the reasons he would be more accepting.

I read some real good explanations as to why people with BPD change their POV so quickly (I can't recall them enough to write it out here, but I'm sure you can google it if it's not listed as a symptom here on the forum).

Good Luck
Tammy

 

[sigh]

I'm not worried about the BPD. I asked my doc of 5 or so years what he thought my dx was. He always thought it was PTSD and Bipolar (I've gotten manic a few times).

The present for my father would be those three monkeys--see no evil, hear no evil, and speak no evil. I thought that would be appropriate.

But my bf came down on me hard which made me have to change my POV just to get out of it. He reamed me. I changed out of necessity, not on a whim. I'm always backing down to people and saying what I think they want me to say, but it's very stressful.

He's like untouchable now. no hugs, no physical reassurance. It wasn't like this before. I am also changing meds. Getting off one (of two) a/d's and going onto another mood stabilizer. And I have mono, a growing thyroid with nodules growing on it, etc.. I don't need his cr*p.

I hope I'm not being harsh.