Gizmo, you are wonderful and I love you. I think we are all having a tough time after Ct. I know I am. Needed a drink and some meds tonight to help get me through. not something I normally allow myself, because I don't want to add an addiction problem to my struggles. But tonight.. Well anyway, anytime I am on here Gizmo is lending strength and encouragement to everyone. Losing one of my children or the idea of losing one of my children is a huge trigger for me, so this weekend has been difficult. Philosobird, listen to Gizmo, she seems so wise and compassionate, that kind of love can do no harm. I know how tough it can be, so focus on the right NOW. you and those close to you are safe, right now. Be conscious of now, safe and alright. Breathe and focus on now.