Connecting The Flashback

[allowedtoheal]

A new flashback and seeing how it connects to another bad series of things as a young person.

It makes me feel really frightened and out-of-my-mind. I'm tired and then I feel low, very low.

When is this all going to be over?

 

[Artista]

ATH... welcome and I am relatively new too. How long have you been dealing with flashbacks??? I have been for the past 6 months and every time a new one happens it throws me. I do wonder if it has an end, yet I keep getting new puzzle pieces so I try and look at it as fortunate I am not experiencing it all at once because the flashbacks are so multi-sosnory and intense i think my brain knows it is all I can handle. One day I believe I'll have all i need to know to move out of the past of this trauma and into a better future. I must believe that.

I hope you find solace here and help to cope. It isn't easy... but as they say... worth it.

My best positive vibes to you!!!!!

 

[allowedtoheal]

Artista:

Thank you for responding. It is kinda a long story but flashbacks are part of the dissociation that I experience, if I can put it like that so it's pretty on-going.

I think I was just tired when I made this original thread. But you are right about having it all come to me at once would be way too intense. It is a good attitude to believe in a better future. Those flashbacks have a purpose, I understand. Thank you for sharing your 'hope' with me. Sometimes it is all it takes.

After this recent flashback I have taken a bit of a break. Part of the healing seems to come with time and space in-between. It is really strange this past flashback. It is almost like I was not aware I was reacting to it because I've had it before and I thought I had finished with it. But it came back during a time when I was dissociating so I thought I was just remembering something but I just couldn't shake the trauma of it this time. It positioned itself in amongst some other memories and so, it was a mystery to me this time.

I have no idea if I am making sense to you but I guess it is my attempt at explaining an inner thing to an outer person.

Thanks again, all the best to you too.