Constantly Unhappy

[Angel0]

Hi all. im not very good at expressing myself but recently ive felt that I need to. I have two very small children so I feel like I need to sort out my issues.

Im constantly unhappy, no matter what approach I take, I just want to disappear, I feel like I dont matter anymore, or as though im living the same day over and over and I.cant break the cycle.

Long story short, I live with my parent and sibling with my two children (not enough money to move out). I am not a single parent nor am I a teenage parent. Im constantly judged because I dont live with my partner and by my family I feel ashamed to admit I want to leave the family home and.be a family together with him and.our kids. (Cultural expectations and negative family history with men).

But its not.just this, I.cant seem to.find solid work.for.some reason no.matter how hard I.try (use to work.full.time, have my.qualifications all they say u need to.gain a successful career). And im.constantly being overruled by family when.it comes to my parenting so.it makes me feel that im.doing.the wrong thing with my.kids all the time.

I could.go on but Im sure its pretty clear.that its just a ton of little things piling up.on.top.of.each other creating one giant stress. ive become afraid to.even attempt anything anymore, as though it only.makes things worse and that im a waste of space and my.kids would.be better off without me.

Any suggestions on how.I.could possibly try and over come.this? or is there anyone else who.might be feeling like this? I feel like I just need someone to talk to/who can relate.

Thanks for reading. x

 

[Namenotdiagnosis]

Don't be hard on yourself and it is ok to sometimes feel a bit down. I go through these phases but I find exerciseing often helps me to destress and pick me up. Having two children is not easy nd finding work is really difficult unfortunately it is a bit of a vicious circle that sometimes be hard to break. Find something you enjoy doing, maybe a hobby ? Do you have any friends you can socialise with? Don't let people judge you got personal circumstances do what makes you happy x thinking of you x take care

 

[Alibongo]

Hi @Angel0
I can't tell you how to fix it as I am in the same position but just wanted to let you know that your not alone. Hugs xx

 

[Heather]

Yeah, I know the feeling. Like trying to get to mt. everest with no snow gear or climbing boots..can be disheartening.

 

[EveHarrington]

:hug:

 

[Sandstone]

How do your circumstances fit with PTSD? Your approach to all of this might well need to be different depending on your diagnosis and past history.

 

[Heather]

RighRight now I feel constantly unhappy too....

Like others said...you're not alone.