I am currently trying to cope with C-PTSD, alone...and I am struggling mightily. As a last-ditch effort I found this site and I am desperately seeking help-mainly looking for anyone who can relate and I guess...listen & provide advice.
The following are the "trauma's" & "significant stressful events" which I have experienced in the last couple of years, that led to my diagnosis:
•Father had heart attack-he survived;
•The next day, I went to pick up my mom to go visit dad in hospital and I found her body-she committed suicide the night before because she didn't think my dad was gonna survive;
•Had a serious car accident that totalled my car-I was not seriously injured;
•House burned down, from an electrical fire. My wife & 2 children were displaced for 4 1/2 mos.;
•The week we were moving back in, my father in-law died from cancer;
•My mother in-law, who I had great relationship with, wanted my wife's attention 24-7 & out of nowhere-my MIL began treating me horribly through severe verbal abuse, harassment & defamation;
•I lost my job of 8yrs after company was sold & moved to CA;
•Our house was foreclosed on;
•I was wrongfully terminated after enduring 8mos of an abusive boss. (I won a legal settlement);
•I used entire settlement to move my family into a beautiful home-for a fresh start, & started my own online company.
•2mos. later, black mold fell through ceiling. The mold was Stachybotrys-"The Toxic & Deadly Black Mold"- It was at least 3yrs. old & the Property Owner concealed the issue.
•I had cleaned it up-not knowing what it was, and I woke up the next day very sick. Experts told us we had to vacate house immediately & everything we owned was contaminated & a total loss. The Property Owner also stole our deposit;
•We had no money & the only option we had was to move in with my dad...and I was now living in the bedroom where I found my mom's body.
•My dad was now dating my MIL & I had no support. In fact, the opposite...I was now being mistreated by my 2 brother in-law's and my dad was very cold to me;
•1wk later, painkillers fell out of my wife's work bag. She denied even knowing they were in bag. She failed 2 home-drug tests...yet still denied it. She became distant, neglectful & basically "checked-out."
•I had to have emergency surgery for toxic fungus in my head & after recovering-had a 4hr. heart surgery from damage the mold caused;
•While in hospital, I found out my wife was...let's just say-"not upholding our marriage vows." She & kids moved in with her mom & I was left to fend for myself.
•I just filed for divorce. My wife is still addicted, her family denies it & their abuse towards me is worse than ever.
Fortunately, an old friend set me up with an apartment & a car for 2mos...I am physically healthy now, but I have literally been frozen & numb-and just sit. I have ZERO support from family, which is basically my soon-to-be "ex in-laws" & my dad who is dating my MIL and he has turned his back on me.
My faith is all I have & I am desperate to start a new life...but I am very lonely and don't know what to do. Sorry for so much info & thank you for taking the time to read this.
The following are the "trauma's" & "significant stressful events" which I have experienced in the last couple of years, that led to my diagnosis:
•Father had heart attack-he survived;
•The next day, I went to pick up my mom to go visit dad in hospital and I found her body-she committed suicide the night before because she didn't think my dad was gonna survive;
•Had a serious car accident that totalled my car-I was not seriously injured;
•House burned down, from an electrical fire. My wife & 2 children were displaced for 4 1/2 mos.;
•The week we were moving back in, my father in-law died from cancer;
•My mother in-law, who I had great relationship with, wanted my wife's attention 24-7 & out of nowhere-my MIL began treating me horribly through severe verbal abuse, harassment & defamation;
•I lost my job of 8yrs after company was sold & moved to CA;
•Our house was foreclosed on;
•I was wrongfully terminated after enduring 8mos of an abusive boss. (I won a legal settlement);
•I used entire settlement to move my family into a beautiful home-for a fresh start, & started my own online company.
•2mos. later, black mold fell through ceiling. The mold was Stachybotrys-"The Toxic & Deadly Black Mold"- It was at least 3yrs. old & the Property Owner concealed the issue.
•I had cleaned it up-not knowing what it was, and I woke up the next day very sick. Experts told us we had to vacate house immediately & everything we owned was contaminated & a total loss. The Property Owner also stole our deposit;
•We had no money & the only option we had was to move in with my dad...and I was now living in the bedroom where I found my mom's body.
•My dad was now dating my MIL & I had no support. In fact, the opposite...I was now being mistreated by my 2 brother in-law's and my dad was very cold to me;
•1wk later, painkillers fell out of my wife's work bag. She denied even knowing they were in bag. She failed 2 home-drug tests...yet still denied it. She became distant, neglectful & basically "checked-out."
•I had to have emergency surgery for toxic fungus in my head & after recovering-had a 4hr. heart surgery from damage the mold caused;
•While in hospital, I found out my wife was...let's just say-"not upholding our marriage vows." She & kids moved in with her mom & I was left to fend for myself.
•I just filed for divorce. My wife is still addicted, her family denies it & their abuse towards me is worse than ever.
Fortunately, an old friend set me up with an apartment & a car for 2mos...I am physically healthy now, but I have literally been frozen & numb-and just sit. I have ZERO support from family, which is basically my soon-to-be "ex in-laws" & my dad who is dating my MIL and he has turned his back on me.
My faith is all I have & I am desperate to start a new life...but I am very lonely and don't know what to do. Sorry for so much info & thank you for taking the time to read this.
