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So... I’m living in the hot zone (NYC) atm so it’s been stressful, scary, sad to say the least. I’ve lost around 300 friends (& I’m not that old... although I do FEEL OLD), acquaintances, friends parents, neighbors, etc. Over the last couple of weeks things have calmed down SO much regarding corona... thank goodness. But about 2 weeks ago my friend and former classmate passed away. That one shocked me to my core. She was just the sweetest person. And a few years ago her 2 younger sisters drowned in a pool. So that was devastating. I’m not allowing myself to think about it yet because I’m not in a strong enough place yet to deal with this new reality.
So I can’t seem to get my anxiety under control. Constant panic attacks. Waking up multiple times during the night, soaked in sweat from some nightmare I usually don’t remember. And to make things more fun, a week ago I walked in the house and my mom was lying on the floor. She had tripped and fallen a little earlier & couldn’t get up. THANK GOODNESS she wasn’t hurt but I had to lift her up and she weighs close to 300 lb! I have a few herniated discs in my back so that was physically painful and I started getting more scared/anxious in general.
Then this past weekend momz heart started racing and she felt heaviness in her chest. Whatever I tried wasn’t helping so I called an ambulance & They took us t They took us tO the hospital. Hospital let me in by mistake so I stayed there for four - five hours that we were there. I was having constant panic attacks because I have a problem when locked into a place- agoraphobia. Since then mother has been having chest pains and heaviness on her chest episodes few times a day. I’ve spoken to her cardiologist (or whoever’s on call) 3-5 times and need to call her cardiologist again to ask more questions .
This is just all too hard And I don’t know how much more of that I can take.
Any any suggestions would be greatly greatly appreciated.
Again, I hope you’re OK and safe and well :)
So I can’t seem to get my anxiety under control. Constant panic attacks. Waking up multiple times during the night, soaked in sweat from some nightmare I usually don’t remember. And to make things more fun, a week ago I walked in the house and my mom was lying on the floor. She had tripped and fallen a little earlier & couldn’t get up. THANK GOODNESS she wasn’t hurt but I had to lift her up and she weighs close to 300 lb! I have a few herniated discs in my back so that was physically painful and I started getting more scared/anxious in general.
Then this past weekend momz heart started racing and she felt heaviness in her chest. Whatever I tried wasn’t helping so I called an ambulance & They took us t They took us tO the hospital. Hospital let me in by mistake so I stayed there for four - five hours that we were there. I was having constant panic attacks because I have a problem when locked into a place- agoraphobia. Since then mother has been having chest pains and heaviness on her chest episodes few times a day. I’ve spoken to her cardiologist (or whoever’s on call) 3-5 times and need to call her cardiologist again to ask more questions .
This is just all too hard And I don’t know how much more of that I can take.
Any any suggestions would be greatly greatly appreciated.
Again, I hope you’re OK and safe and well :)