Couldn't hate myself more

[Punky143]

Why live a life like mine? I hate myself and the parts. I don't know how to work, married with one kid, and work on buried trauma with my T? I've said rotten things around my child never at her, I loose control and my anxiety goes 0-10 in 1 second followed by rage and the impossible-being around anyone. I hate it more than anyone will know.

 

[LuckiLee]

Don't be so hard on yourself at least you realize what is happening. Take some time for yourself if you can. A walk. A run. A movie. A drive. Anything to get your thoughts in order. When you feel the rage coming on at least leave the room until you calm down a bit.

Good luck!

 

[whiteraven]

Why live a life like mine? I hate myself and the parts. I don't know how to work, married with one kid...

I'm sorry you're suffering so. I know that hate well. I can tell you that time really does ease it. I grew in my understanding, we grew in our cooperation, and I came to know that I could not live without the relationship I had with those inside. I still have issues, but they are not with those inside. Even the angry ones do not bother me anymore because I understand their roles.

I have the rage thing, too, and the losing control. It was awhile before I got that under control, but I did. And you will, too. Be good to yourself, to your parts, and make sure you set aside time just for you every day. Even if it's just a couple of minutes. Because you are important!