Court In 12 Hours

[Padfoot]

Court appearance tomorrow. I could very well die of shame. His lawyers will be given all the evidence, including horrifying photos of me that nobody should ever see. It's way too late to back out.

 

[nomedic1]

Sorry you have to go through this.

 

[Padfoot]

Feel like driving off a cliff is a better option than this.

 

[The Albatross]

Feelings are not facts. A court case, as difficult as it may be, is at least a chance at justice being served. That is better than some of us ever get.

Manage your stress, focus on your purpose instead of your feelings, and I hope it goes well for you today.

 

[ashdawn8287]

Oh dear you will be in my thoughts and prayers. I am so sorry you have to deal with the aftermath. You are STRONG!

I highly respect you for being this couragious.

Stay focused on the present. Distract those bad thoughts!

I am wishing you the best of luck
Hang in there you will be proud of yourself afterwards, remember that.

 

[Padfoot]

I'm not going to sleep too well tonight.

 

[ashdawn8287]

That is understandable. High stress increases symptoms and not getting enough sleep does it , but not getting enough sleep is increases it to.

I love trying a different flavor of hot tea before bed and writing out my doubts, that why they ate out of my head and infront of me and I realize the power they hold.

I had a terrible noghtmare-woke sweating and gasping for air.

So good morning, I guess I am up for the day. :)

 

[wicked child]

Feel like driving off a cliff is a better option than this.

Then he will WIN. Stay calm, and focused. And do what needs to be done, for women everywhere... Be strong, I know you will overcome..

 

[ashdawn8287]

You got this padfoot it is truly brilliant. I wish you had women and sexual abused/assault advocates with you and provided for you-free of charge during these difficult but necessary steps in court. Maybe one day.

 

[Padfoot]

It's out of my hands now anyway, the evidence will be presented regardless and that's what scares me, people seeing that.

 

[ashdawn8287]

Well think of it this way, people are "I don't believe it until I see it" and they do need to see that and how that affected your life as embarassing as it is, people don't believe until the see. I am so sorry glad its out if your mind.

Can you look away or down during this upsetting picture show.
Maybe wear sunglasses-those always have the invisible effect on me and makes me more confident.

Also, you should not feel ashamed of this. It is not your fault!

 

[GrahamCracker]

Hang in there! If all else fails then focus on your immediate surroundings, what it feels like to sit in the chair, what color the walls are, etc. Sometimes it helps to be grounded in the moment.