Crashing After Reaching Safety: How To Make People Understand

[Ava Jarvis]

Yeah, the person helped me? I think? I don't know

I have an appointment anyways

 

[hodge]

That's good. Good luck, dear.

 

[dnp]

I hope you'll be able to see a therapist soon who has experience with abuse. Coming out of an abuse background we can find ourselves ending up in abusive situations over and over again and we need to take care to be around safe people when we are trying to stabilize. A therapist can help you assess if someone is safe and suggest ways of finding safe people.

Also, there is a dev who does some outreach to other devs about mental illness. His name is Greg Baugues and I've found his work inspiring.

 

[Bloomy]

Ava - I havent read all the comments. I came as far as you being accused of maybe being a monster?
Thats what they call me. And no I dont deserve to die. Nor do you. We deserve to be understand and met with sincere care instead of guilt tripping and patronized behaviour.

Me they call dangerous cause of my reactions. As a respond to their reactions that is. Ive been through hell and back and to call me a monster when I rightfully break down - well its doesnt make me a monster. But it makes them monsters. I have had the fortunate experience of some few people who werent in state of arrogance when I had my moments. They treated me most of all humanly. Gentle. And with sincere heartfelt care. It show just as I knew that when people meet me in that way I calm down from the state Im in pretty quikly. Like it happend some times here on this forum too.....

But when people project their subconsiousness fear on me and neglect my feelings? Oh well its pretty much pushin all the buttons I have. Being neglected all my life from those who were supposed to be the closest its not something I handled very well. Usually throw me in a real fist of fury. To my self. Id never ever hurt another person. Not even those that harmed so wrongfully. Those people have immature feelings and poorly developed ability for symphaty with others and ability to care.

Is this what is the case with you too? You being the scapegoat of other peoples inner demons?

 

[Ava Jarvis]

Hi @Bloomy - I dunno if I'm a scapegoat of other people's inner demons. I'm sorry that happened to you.

After getting through the hell that were my parents, I faced ableist attitudes that came out of ignorance, small-mindedness, etc, from most people. I analyze media—and man there is a LOT of stuff that codes PTSD suffererers as potential monsters unless we are so broken we can't function. It's appalling, and I try to remind myself that it isn't true, except sometimes, in my weaker moments, I wonder if it is true of me after all.