Crossroads

[Jane.l]

I don't take meds either though they do seem to help a lot of people here so maybe don't discount it totally.

I think you need to stop trying to make any big decisions - it's not a yes or no - black and white thing - there's a hell of a lot of grey there . Just focus on getting to the next moment . I am sorry it's so painful and I do understand , I know exactly where you are coming from . Just slow it down take little tiny steps - not huge ones . You will get through this .

 

[Tinyflame]

I totally agree with @Jane.l . I went through a period where I really *should* (technically) have been in a straight-jacket tied down to get through all the things around me and ways I was tempted to end it. Sheer unstoppable intent. It was horrible. Obviously I'm still here though, you can do it. :hug:

It just takes something small to budge it. You can't predict it. Try to be kind to yourself (I know it's incredibly hard).

If/ when the moment is right try to find a motivation to promise not to that works for you. It doesn't have to be a motivation for yourself (that didn't really work for me), as long as it works. Go moment to moment only, tell someone.

We are pulling for you. :hug: