Sufferer Dealing With A Huge Loss & Abusive Ex-boyfriend--lost Here

[StarryEyes91109]

I lost my uncle on September 11, 2009 and that is the day my life went to hell.

He was and still is my best friend, and I didn't want to deal with the fact that he was gone. So I rushed into a relationship and moved out of my parents house. And it wasn't on good terms.

I thought that my ex was this amazing guy that could help me through the process in my time. But things with my ex didn't turn out as planned. He was physically, emotionally, and sexually abused me.

Now that I left the abusive situation I came back home to live with my parents. But I came home with a drug problem that I picked up over the two years I was with my ex. Then 3 months or so ago I over dosed and I haven't touched anything since.

I just feel so lost and I feel like a failure. A disappointment to my family. I just need people to talk to about this stuff and advice.

Thanks yall for taking time out for me :)

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[Sandra]

Welcome to the forum.

 

[PerfectlyFlawed]

You should be proud of yourself! You left your abuser, and that is a great accomplisment. One of the hardest things to do is leave one of those. Dont be too hard on yourself. Healing takes time and hard work, you will have your days of disappointment. One and three women have PTSD from abusive relationships, you are not alone. Welcome to the forum. Congratulations on leaving you abuser.

-PerfectlyFlawed

 

[PerfectlyFlawed]

Oh, do you have a local domestic violence shelter you can go to? For counselling. They will not judge you and can guide you through the healing process!

 

[MyStarryNight]

Welcome StarryEyes

 

[J'aime]

Let me make one thing crystal clear here- You should be EXTREMELY proud of yourself for leaving the abusive situation! That takes immense strength and bravery!! The drugs? Don't guilt yourself about that right now. Lord knows you're dealing with enough as it is right now. Instead, focus on one success at a time... 1. "I left him" 2. Today is a day I didn't use 3. Tomorrow will be yet another day I haven't used! You will succeed, because you have already shown that you possess the strength it takes to get yourself out of a bad situation. Trust that brave brain of yours, and trust in yourself to follow through. You are in a recent aftermath, which always looks like a giant mess at first. But little by little, pieces are picked up, rearranged, and put back together. Before you know it, some day you will be looking back and smiling with pride for yourself.

BIG HUGS!!!!