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Dealing with suicidal thoughts

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Constantly reminding myself that 'it might not have been my fault' and that I do deserve to be here, is bloody exhausting. Thinking about suicide is so easy, I feel I deserve it, like I owe it to other people. But I know that I would never act on these thoughts. But daily thoughts get you down, wear you out, life isn't much fun at the moment. It's a day-by-day routine at the minute.

Any advice on snapping out of this kind of thinking?
 
You owe it to yourself to break this thought cycle. You deserve a life beyond what you've been through. Start by making notes every day. Something that makes you smile or just stops you feeling that way for even the smallest amount of time.
It could be a song on the radio, a nice meal or a smell from outside. It will get you looking for things to write, that's been my experience so far and that's all I can offer is what has worked for me.
 
When those sorts of thoughts creep back in I make myself do something. Sometimes its a simple walk in the woods. If the thoughts are particularly strong I up the dose and make it much harder. I might choose to go up our local mountain as fast as I possibly can. The point is not the exercise itself. The point is to break the downward spiral my thoughts are creating.

What you choose to do to break the cycle is not important. It can be physical or mental. It just needs to be something that requires enough focus to override the negative thoughts for a while so you get a break.
 
I have to make it a point to connect with the earth, air, fire, and water to keep redirecting my thoughts away from the ones that take me to the darkest spaces.

A walk by the mountain stream, a barefoot walk in the grass, foraging for wild edibles, planting something in the garden or a container to nurture and watch grow, primal screaming in the forest, taking a bath or shower - it feels as if water cleanses my aura, I also keep a spritzer bottle handy (sometimes with a few drops of peppermint essential oil in it, too) to act as a portable air conditioner as well as to cool off my often times "hot head", I smudge myself and my living spaces with sage sticks, build a fire in the fire pit thingy and sit with it until it burns out (often writing down my worries and burning them, too), do many deep breathing exercises all day, every day, intermittently.

If I allow myself to be still and continue to think of the things taking me down, I'll only keep going further into my despair. Action and momentum, even the smallest ones, really help to dig me out. Wishing you well in discovering some things that are helpful for you.
 
Go out and get some sort of exercise to clear your thoughts and release some of the pent up energy. I know it is hard to force oneself to do it, but the pay off is worth it. Call a supportive friend, join in on chatting in the chat section, get in touch with your inner child by blowing bubbles, coloring, etc, or get out the journal and free write.
 
Constantly reminding myself that 'it might not have been my fault' and that I do deserve to be here, is...

Hi Iriseen! Sorry to hear that you are struggling with depression. 18 years ago I was very depressed, and not matter what people said, it never helped. I finally decided to see my doctor, and he started me out on Prozac, but that didn't agree with me. I then switched to Zoloft 50mg, and after 2 weeks, I felt like a brand new person. I've been taking it ever since, but I feel if you find something that works, you just want to stay on it. It's sure beats the alternative. Many people are against taking meds., but if they work, then it's worth it. Since then, I've enjoyed my life again. I figured you only live once, and at the time I needed something, because I was ready to end my life. Talk to your doctor, and ask him or her about Zoloft or something else that will relieve you of these symptoms. Good Luck, and God Bless. **Praying helps too. God is listening!
 
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