I hope someone will study patients with obesity to determine, at the start of their treatment, whether or not they have markers for psychological trauma. Rather than just treating PTSD patients who are obese, I believe that some obese patients who are tested will turn out to have some level of PTS or PTSD, or other disorders of extreme stress.
I've never been skinny, but used to be active and 20 pounds from my target weight. Then, one of my big traumas hit.
From my diary...
"I learned then that it's not EXERCISE that I can't stand. It's not sweat that freaks me out. It's my pounding heart, combined with the sound of my own breathing heavy that, 15 years ago, turned into a trigger to my big trauma...and parts of these others.
Then, I went from being someone who was swimming, running, rollerblading, hiking, biking regularly...and gained 60 lb. in one year. I ate away my anxiety. I became an exercise/elevated heart rate/elevated breathing rate avoider. Because it triggered me back to the feelings of terror.
My system was so flooded with cortisol this summer from the internal system stress that I went into irregular heartbeats. I went to the E.R. - and learned that my heart is FAR from defective. In fact, internally I'm in rather good shape, considering the fact I'm so obese now.
...and that was when I began biking again for the first time since before my big trauma with my ex.
I was so agoraphobic that I had anxiety attacks just going around the block. I had to put on an ipod with new music that had NO relationship to any of my traumas...and put it on LOUD...so I wouldn't be able to hear my heavy breathing. I ignored my pounding chest.
I kept riding, every day. I went in ever increasing areas around my home. Soon, around my city. Then, I started going past areas of the city I have avoided because of some of my awful paramedic memories. Finally, I started riding out in the country...and found myself again."