Best wishes to you. I was finally put on a drug similar to Xanax (can't remember the name at the moment). I've fought hard to keep off of these, but I finally knew I needed it to get through a situation 2 weeks back. It worked and it took a lot of internal muster to even take the pill to start with. I hate drugs... It took a lot for me to admit I needed it. Of course, I was so worked up my blood pressure 2 hours after I had started calming down was 147 over 100... Yeah, I needed it or things were going to get bad medically.