define the symptom - or psychological process

[missinlife]

Sometimes I feel hypnotized. Ok, in fairness I don't have allot going on and am short on sleep due to now over forty moves and this one just occurring. I don't have a routine yet.

My radio, your names (its not just that situation ..- the name they share, ..I was struggling because I somewhat have a crush on the Lawyer with my dead friends name (whom I was appointed after complaining outside a national guard office over moving so many times asking "who's the enemy, a fake ID is worth up to 10,000$ in a foreign country .."but they want me to buy 40?- there is a sense of surrealness- the eviction occurred on April 1st. fake ids and dead friends...

If I stare at him -(that would be inappropriate - it's more like study him) it helps me to see he's not my "friend" and I am having
a hard time with his death. I am likely potentially projecting or am I trying to dispel projections ... it's kind of problematic- but i do usually get more than two hours of sleep.

 

[Friday]

Just to clarify / make sure I understand what you’re looking for…

1. PTSD symptoms that match feeling hypnotized, making associations that aren’t real (mistaking one person or situation for another), and dysregulated thoughts/feelings… that aren’t better explained as a byproduct of sleep dep?

2. ANY disorder or condition’s symptoms that match …etc… that aren’t better explained as a byproduct of sleep dep?

If so? All of them do fall under the sleep dep umbrella, but can also be found in well over a hundred different disorders & medical conditions just off the top of my head, possibly more. Definitely more if there are comorbid disorders in play, medications, or health conditions

 

[arfie]

Sometimes I feel hypnotized. Ok, in fairness I don't have allot going on and am short on sleep due to now over forty moves and this one just occurring. I don't have a routine yet.

"dissociation" has been a big word in my own therapy sessions. i first leaned the word while i was experiencing "catatonic dissociation" where i was experiencing something close to psychic comas where i had little to no awareness of, much less the ability to respond to anything going on around me. over the course of remediating that psychotic extreme, i have borrowed theories from autistic friends to see dissociation as a spectrum, running the range from tuning out an unwelcome lecture to the catatonic dissociation i started experiencing as a child prostitute at the turn of the 70's. insomnia and continually changing living arrangements were/are high on the trigger list for experiencing this psycho tick.

empathy, missin. now that i have mindful awareness of the phenom, i count dissociation as a blessing which turns into a curse at the dark end of the spectrum. as a blessing, it allows me to stay positive while enduring unpleasant events and/or whiling away some idle hours. on the curse end? ? ? i'm not sure i have good words for that end of the spectrum. just empathy.