Deflection

[Finchlet2]

I just opened up in a post that I'm not sure I was supposed to but it just kinda happened and I'm really sorry if the subject wasn't on point relative to the thread but I can't bring myself to type those words again. This is the first summer I haven't gone on some crazy mish training)(and briefly reaching Pro boxing level till yawn just completely lost interest same with the rings and just basically anything to push myself to the limits of physical endurance so I can see at cry and bleed out this disgusting toxic junk they infected me with. This is the summer to love my life, keep grounded, keep writing my comic books in order to set up a trust fund for my son and find a way to wear clothing that doesn't boil me alive yet still feel safe. And I won't try and cut my tits of either, I know why I think I want to be a boy in the summer and I don't really I just get confused and overwhelmed. Why do they have to design female swim wear so pro vocotively? It's like they assume if you have an OK figure you instantly are gonna be OK with any Tom dick and Harry gawping just cis it's hot enough. Where's modesty and cool comfort? I need a non see through sarong that I can still play sports in.

 

[digger]

You've titled this 'Deflection' - do you mean you are trying to deflect away from behaviours and activities you usually engage in at this time of year?

 

[Finchlet2]

I think so

 

[blackemerald1]

@Finchlet2 - you should look in different shops if the swimwear you are finding is too revealing. I've managed and when caught out a dark t-shirt and long shorts does well too.

This is the summer to love my life, keep grounded,

Sounds like you have plenty to be doing and planned. I hope you can stay on track.

 

[Finchlet2]

Shorts is one of the hurdles I am trying to conquer as I am self conscious of the scarring on my legs. T shirt and leggings is my current go to for a dip but even that still is tough fear heart rate wise. When I am really stressed I seem to lose like half a stonein a day from fear alone and that's not the goal. I'm not anorexic anymore. Managed to wear my summer top for a few hours yesterday but getting in the water was too much but that's a whole being held under the water drowning trigger. Try today.

 

[Gs172003]

I just opened up in a post that I'm not sure I was supposed to but it just kinda happened and I'm rea...

Not sure if it's helpful or not but there is a modest bathing suit company I have seen advertised.

 

[Deleted member 8714]

I found swim pants at one store online. So they do exist for those of us who don't wish to expose our legs. They were also UV-50 rated.

 

[Finchlet2]

Thank you Zoogal and Congruency for the awesome advice. Which stores are you typing about?

 

[Deleted member 8714]

For me it's a plus size store called Junonia.

 

[Finchlet2]

OK thank you. I need a UK size six. Its one of the reasons I struggle with this issue so much is cos most swimwear I can find in my size barely covers anything. And that also triggers urges to hack at my tits. I went in the sea in my jeans and the shirt the other day which was nice. I think if I just chill about it I'll figure something out. Thank you you've been so awesome about this.

 

[Friday]

@Finchlet2 google “rash guard”.

They’re what you wear under a wet suit for surfing, but they’re so convienent that they’ve caught on as regular swim apparel here in the states. Although wacky parents buy them too big for their kids (they’re supposed to be skin tight, like a bathing suit, not flapping around creating drag whilst trying to swim). Short sleeved shirts, long sleeved shirts, various leg lengths (full, 3/4, half)... assuming you wouldn’t just rather throw on a pair of Roxy board shorts (or bloke’s board shorts, goes to the knee instead of mid thigh).

The rash guard & board short combo = Super cute / Very sporty... and modest enough nuns can wear them.

 

[Deleted member 8714]

Junonia shipping rates for international.