Discouraged

[JCP]

I've been feeling pretty discouraged today. Yesterday, I had a real bad pstd day.. complete with hiding in my clothes closet and crying and all. Sometimes, it feels as though you are in the bottom of a dark well and you can't climb out.
Sometimes it feels as though you are all alone where nobody understands.
:dontknow:

 

[FlameTachiku]

Wow, I remember feeling that way as a teen. The sensation of falling backwards into a black pit of pitch darkness with the slow spinning. I loved that closet, safe, alone, and quiet. It all went away though. I have no use for a closet accept for clothes now. I hope this for you, too.

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[void]

:smile:JCP:smile:

We understand:smile:

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[kers]

Ugh, the closet days suck. They happen. And they pass. Can you find something to do that is self-caring, to help yourself recover a bit?

 

[ga yankee]

Yup...bottom of the dark well with no flashlight and some jackas* just threw the rope down that you were supposed to use to climb out. I know that too well (so to speak) Now I think of it as my friends all linking together to help me out. Friends, family, kids I coach, doctors. Sometimes that helps a lot. But you will get out. And next time you go in it won't be as deep and you won't be there as long. And you might remember the flashlight :wink:

 

[Other]

I sometimes wished (and still do.) that our closets weren't so packed full so that I could have a place to crawl into.

I definately understand what you are talking about.

 

[shari]

"Closet" days can become a spiral, at least for me. (I actually prefer the bed with the covers over my head.) The spiral is that you hide and then feel guilty about the hiding which makes you hide more.
One thing that has helped me is to set a time limit on it. I allow myself an hour in bed and call it "self care". I plan something for after that hour that can help me feel that I accomplished something. Sometimes, depending on the day, it might be as simple as attending to ONE thing I need to do, like clean the bathroom or some days it is a full list of things I don't want to do.
I try to watch my self talk about all this so I don't go to deep.
That is what works better for me. Hope you are doing OK.

 

[pandora]

I used to feel like I was in a deep black hole and I would climb out and every time my fingers got to the top someone stomped on my hands.....we know how bad the bad days can get,
Are you in therapy or on meds? You need some type of support and counselling to heal from this.

 

[redtriskell]

If you are just starting on this road, there are many different kinds of days along the path. The "closet" day is only one of many. But so is "power" day. And "love myself" day. And "I can do this" day. Yeah, there are crummy ones,too; but the main thing is that they aren't ALL crummy. I promise. red

 

[Mercy]

Yup, I have closet days too. People here have suggested that I could bring things in to the closet that comfort me. maybe a soft blanket, or a pillow, or a stuffed animal, or shells which I love to look at. and of course tissue. I leave a box of tissues there just in case.

Now, I feel like I've done some of the grieving I needed to do, so my closet days are farther a part than they used to be.

I wish for your pain to gently transform into comfort and peace.

 

[JCP]

Hey, thanks for all of the comments. Gives me something to think over. And yeah sometimes I like hiding in my bed or sleeping the blues away.
This sounds childish, but has anyone ever hid under a kitchen table?

 

[cypher]

Sorry JPC! Had alot of those days, seems like everyday. They suck. Seems like theres no light at the end of the tunnell (or well, hehe) but it passes.
And yeah, nobody does understand thats around you (and for me thats basically coworkers, because i have become a hermit and avoid old friends like the plague). They have no idea what you're doing/going through, like coworkers, as if getting to work isn't hard enough, then they don't understand anything and makes it worse, and tell you you basically suck at your job and that you wer'nt like this a year ago. But the day ends and it passes, just to go back again, to be told the same thing. It's sooooo frustrating! Arggg!