Do You Ever Cry And Sing Out The Pain.

[Deleted member 28403]

I sometimes make up lyrics, and sing something, on my own melody, when I'm feeling shit. Just singing quitely, sometimes barely from the gushing teats.

Anyone else here who does that?

 

[twinkle30]

I can't cry and I wish I could. The tears just don't come.

 

[lostforgottensoul]

I can't cry and I wish I could. The tears just don't come.

I cant either. Sometimes i can but not usually for very long & i can only do it alone, never in front od anyone, including my therapist. The longest time i cried was recently when i caused trouble here and thought i had made people go away again; had to go lock myself in a bathroom biggest bathroom stall at work & curl on the floor in the corner.

My favorite song to listen to when im suicidal, every day (or least i think about it every day) is Hang On by Good Charolette and i love the one of youtube that as people talking between the song about being left behind by suicide. Its about the only thing that helps.

@Saelben, Songs are good! Im an artist and music is out so sing out the pain i say!

 

[Tinyflame]

No.

I'm more tactile, walk, touch, dance, etc that is helpful.

 

[Seasounds]

Yes. I connect to my pain and, depending on the situation, cry to get out my pain, or play with sounds and release sounds--moans, groans, whines, to express my emotions.

Making sounds, while I feel, helps me stay connected to the present; this is a preferred option, instead of lying frozen.

I'll use singing too, to express sadness and anger, and to turn my mood around, so I can go out my front door, intact (so to speak).

There is a part of the singing where I can start to crack myself up/get goofy- because I'm singing way out of tune.

(Good reminder, I'm in a funk. I'll do this today.)

 

[illusionist]

I used to do this a lot when I was young....usually to my dog. I would just make up the words and the tune as I went along.....it was a great way to let feelings out without tears flooding me.

 

[Renestel]

I knew you and I had a connection Saelben!! Hehe. I am extremely emotional as a being. When you are super sensitive to the world, I think if you don't have outlets you will be in a dark, dark place if not go to the extent of suicidal --- I was a singer since 8, mom raised me religious but cutting a very long story short , I observed some really messed up stuff and chose to leave the church and join a high school dance choir. That was pretty awesome. At the time I was in Texas, and EVERYTHING is a competition there. So I spend three years studying and competing singing Mozart.
Then after more pain in my life, came and new introductions to people and music in college, I tried out for a metal band. Best decision of my life that year. Amazing. I had to break so many " conservative rules" -- going from singing and studying Opera to screaming is a HUGE change. But it was SO freeing. I literally felt like I was emptying my body of anger, while we did make some really amazing songs. Putting lyrics to things has a lot of power to it- I think you hit in that a bit. Very beautiful stuff. Keep it up!! It's very healthy and artistic for all!!

 

[Ronin]

I caught myself singing when grieving & teaching myself to let go.

All around singing to let go & keep hanging in there has been helpful to me. Breathing & sound & slow movement, slowing down all the races in my head.

 

[Deleted member 28403]

Where is my memory. I don't remember having posted this... How much am I dissociating lately?

Okay, concious mind reply to the thread:

@Renestel
Glad you are enjoying singing in a band :) Screaming out is one of the best things to do, and even better when there is a lack of complaining neighbours :P Sorry for not replying for like, half a month.

I've been recently even thinking of writing some of the stuff down, they are slowly starting to have proper musical structure.

 

[Renestel]

Oooh yes, writing lyrics or just even ramblings are SO healthy for you. Are you into art? I've even drawn the lyrics and give them colors I feel are fitting that's like a double therapy bonus if you ever wanna try! I always feel tons better after.

 

[Deleted member 28403]

I used to draw before, and sometimes draw as a means of getting through some bad things... Like, draw night mares and what was happening in them. But I have no time lately...