I totally forgot what I was gonna say. damn it.
Lately, due to more severe traumatic incidents, I've had the thought that it would be too dangerous for me to keep a weapon with me, like others mentioned- too much in the head, don't wanna act out on myself. Yet, I've felt that maybe things will never be, NEVER, EVER going back to the way it used to be. Flashbacks come back strong and it makes feel that at the those moments- I was better off dead due to the intensity of the moments.
Moments like these, when they do occur, is a reminder that nobody ever, should experience what we experience. It's a questionable thing. Nobody should ever deal with this. EVER :sour: