Do You Wake Up With Bruises And Blood?

[Deleted member 33052]

Ouch ouch ouch. This has become a very painful thread! Sorry to the sufferings of all, be they conscio...

That's funny, Allie! My daughter was the same. We referred to her as the cartwheel.

 

[shatter eyes]

@shatter eyes what about you? Head trauma?

Oh, I almost forgot, I was given one...

From medical scans yes I have head trauma about white and grey regions being shreded.

I use to sleep with my pet turtle under my arm. If I woke up early she would yawn and dig herself into the blanket.

Now anything on my bed becomes abused and or launched. Most recently it was the laptop. I was charging it and tucked it away. The cord crept into my dream as a giant tapeworm trying to go inside me. I kicked and kicked and got myself wrapped up in the blanket too. The laptop was pulled on to the bed and took a beating.

Yeah.. an electrical cord transformed into a giant tapeworm. Looking back I can laugh ambut I was shit scared in the dream.

My psych upped Valproic Acid and said give it a few weeks for results.
Will I go from thumping the pillow to humping the pillow.

 

[shatter eyes]

Is there an end to this without taking medicines from doctors that prescribed pills without ever experiencing what we go through?

Every night I take my pills, offer thanks and prayers, wear earplugs, wear nightgaurd sometimes upper and lower, check my bed for objects, and lights off. Wake up with bruises, blood, blood in my mouth, or a wet bed from sweating or yup thats right.

However, I have had a sweet dream few times and woke up with smears I feared was poop...then I saw the nutella jar on the floor.

Sometimes it is hard to tell the therapists because they do not go through what I go through. I try to make humor in my life but the truth is i am very shattered and have no clarity to my life anymore.

I drift from dreams to nightmares, punches kickes and smears. Sleep with me if you dare. Please sign this waiver of liability to show that you care.... My dear beware.

 

[joeylittle]

@shatter eyes - forgive me if you've answered this question already - are you in trauma processing therapy?

 

[shatter eyes]

@shatter eyes - forgive me if you've answered this question already - are you in...

What is that?
I have TAG Trigger Awareness Grounding but it only goes so far.

Nobody has actually processed my stuff with me. We approach and shutdown or become very big eyed.
I want to be free and me to process but i dont want to hurt anyone or scare anyone.

Recently I was asked about the event and as i searched for words the chopstick snapped under pressure. I stared at the broken chopstick and felt my heart race. I said I dont know what to say, I have no words, and suddenly.... my right hand flipped the chopstick around and went ear to throat. I thought of jabbing it in my neck... then my mother said something. Not sure what she said but i had a moment to TAG and released my hands.

I try to be ok. I really do.

 

[joeylittle]

Nobody has actually processed my stuff with me. We approach and shutdown or become very big eyed.

I can only speak for my own experience. But when my PTSD was diagnosed and night disturbances became really bad, I did tie myself down (in bed) sometimes. I've always been a sleepwalker, so I developed certain tricks to curtail that. But the PTSD made everything much worse.

It wasn't until I started processing through the memories that I began getting some relief. I also had to employ a lot of CBT and DBT in my waking hours.

I do EFT, which isn't necessarily for everyone. EMDR and Prolonged Exposure (it's not necessarily what you might think it is) are two very reliable trauma therapies.

Until I started integrating those memories, everything I spent all day suppressing pretty much came out when I was asleep.

I'm sorry you are going through this. It's hard. Really really hard. But it sounds like something needs to change so that you can start diminishing the frequency of the sleep episodes.

 

[shatter eyes]

I've done some research on this because I'm a *thrasher*, and it sounds like many of you are, too....

Yes I have head injury. Doc says TBI. Yes all these blood and bruise and beating fighting screaming smearing scratching biting kicking thrashing launching began long before my diagnosis.

I was told i had a concussion and give it time to heal... things got worse then got brain scan.

I bringing this topic back.
I am on my third blanket since starting the post. Got another approved warranty claim on bed because the pillowtop foam is destroyed.

I miss my teddy bear and other stuffed animals. They are piled into a closet face down so I do not see their faces. My dream gaurdians I am ashamed to look at because it reminds me how i have hurt them.

MAL CONTENT where did you read the research?

Btw, i still waiting for sleep study.

 

[EmmaOwl]

That's funny, Allie! My daughter was the same. We referred to her as the cartwheel.

As a toddler, I really liked sleeping in my crib (of course this was when I was able to climb in and out on my own). My parents would hear ka-thunk, kathunk all night, as I got older and bigger. My mother bribed me into a real bed with Care Bear sheets! I remember this. I coveted those sheets! So funny to remember the thinking of a small child.... in a positive situation.

 

[Deleted member 33052]

@shatter eyes, this is worth a look:

Sleep Disorders in Chronic Traumatic Brain Injury