Sadtriedandtrue
New Here
If anyone is in the apt. I have to sleep with my door locked and something up against it or I can't sleep very much and when I do have terrible nightmares of things that have happened to me. One my father coming in my room, two my best friend that got killed by around mate in 04 and nightmares of being very physically abused by my step mom. When I was about 10 I shared a bedroom next to theirs with my half sister but I had a makeshift sleeping area in my closet that I booby trapped as much as possible so to wake up before any abuse and pray to just disappear. When found I would cover my ears in a sitting position because of sensory overload a form of autism before getting kicked or pulled out by my hair. I have also been robbed at gunpoint so sometimes that nightmare triggers in too as a second one. So sick of the nightmares reliving the trauma's over and over again. Door locked and exit strategy in place.I physically cannot sleep with the door open. It scares me too much. If I hear it open (even quietl...