Childhood Does The Abuse Even Matter Anymore...?

[PointlessExistence]

As far as the abuse, if it matters to you, then it matters period.

As far as your relationship with your mother, and how you view it, it's just part of your baggage that she created. You won't be free until she dies, and maybe not even then. I know. I'm living it too. I'm living it with a mother who has admitted all she's done wrong and has repented, and it still doesn't fix things. When things grow crooked, that's how they stay.

 

[Freedomfighter]

I'm feeling a bit disjointed...

Well, uhm, basically my mother emotionally and mentally abused me my e...

Well, that is not rambling there. It is just a way of dealing with abuse. And yes the abuse does matter because if we research the abuse, its origins and the way it was done and what the intentions were then we learn the most important thing: how to avoid it for the future.

All of my abusers: father, stalkers, ex spouse are essentially the same person, all with the same sick mind set, all with the same intentions, all with the same types of abuse. When I noticed the same peculiar motives and the same kinds of abuse within the criminal justice profession, from people who instead of helping victims abuse their knowledge of criminal justice in order to seek out and hurt and humiliate victims I knew that this all goes back to the same motives of my first abuser: my father.

Needless to say I now recognize such shady people much quicker and it often takes only a minute or two to instantly recognize such abusers often by body language alone. That means anyone can walk towards me and I will often recognize such a person as an abusive entity before they utter a single word. Unfortunately there are such idiots after having been identified by me as such abusive entities and who I avoid, yet they attempt to continue to stride into my way and only prove with their unintelligent blabbering that I was indeed correct in identifying them in the first place.