I now have to give up alcohol, or shake.....with every skeletal muscle movement. I never realized that drinking around a bottle of vodka about 6 days a week for around 6 years would lead to this. The bottle of vodka estimate includes times over that and dry spells also. It started slow, but now if I do a push up I shake up and down, no loss of strength just shaking muscles.
It tapers off about 11 am but before that if I don't concentrate my hands lightly shake (now that I've cut back by half with NO binges) as I attempt to move them in delicate tasks. Getting out off bed my arms shake like a boss, when I yawn my whole upper body shakes.
This is my central nervous system slowly shutting down and controlling the muscles in spasms rather than a continuous movement.
A trusted person who would know has told me that this will go away if I quit drinking, but debilitate me if I continue. I feel a weird rush of pride that I started cutting back that day, no turning back. I guess I finally found a release from the way I medicated and punished myself. It medicated by numbing and punished by rocking hangovers until 3pm every day.
I've always danced on that edge anyways, when I was suicidal the only way I would go is if I starved; that was the only way to be sure that's what I wanted (Control freak much?). And would you guess what, my body wanted that food a lot more than I wanted to die. So now that I'm actually in danger there's no question, I'm quitting. It really trivializes how much I've put my loved ones through with my pain and drinking; the minute my ass is really on the line in a clear way "I"M DONE NOW!!"....
Anyone ever heard of this or hit a brick wall similarly, with alcohol or something else?
It tapers off about 11 am but before that if I don't concentrate my hands lightly shake (now that I've cut back by half with NO binges) as I attempt to move them in delicate tasks. Getting out off bed my arms shake like a boss, when I yawn my whole upper body shakes.
This is my central nervous system slowly shutting down and controlling the muscles in spasms rather than a continuous movement.
A trusted person who would know has told me that this will go away if I quit drinking, but debilitate me if I continue. I feel a weird rush of pride that I started cutting back that day, no turning back. I guess I finally found a release from the way I medicated and punished myself. It medicated by numbing and punished by rocking hangovers until 3pm every day.
I've always danced on that edge anyways, when I was suicidal the only way I would go is if I starved; that was the only way to be sure that's what I wanted (Control freak much?). And would you guess what, my body wanted that food a lot more than I wanted to die. So now that I'm actually in danger there's no question, I'm quitting. It really trivializes how much I've put my loved ones through with my pain and drinking; the minute my ass is really on the line in a clear way "I"M DONE NOW!!"....
Anyone ever heard of this or hit a brick wall similarly, with alcohol or something else?
