I don't know what it's like where you are, but I know we'd know if you weren't here. I read a post of yours of genuine kindness and well-wishing towards someone. I can't answer the atom question, but I can say that the space you are occupying at the moment, here on the planet, is certainly being filled by an awful lot of just plain GOOD. How could there not be a vacuum in it's non-existance?
I hope it's ok to say, but you just seem genuine and kind-I'm not sure anything else is more worthwhile than that in the end. So sorry it's so awful at the moment-really do mean that.
Anni