Hermitess_Nun_N.H.
New Here
I'm an Only Child of a second marriage, and my CPST is so bad from the past 28 years because I know I need to move away from my locale,because I've applied for jobs for 6 months and nobody will give me a job. My narc husband used to traumatize me every time we would move around the country. I don't have any network of people to tell me what other States are hiring better than my State. My CPSD insidiously wants me to blame myself for not knowing how to navigate getting out. All my time spent in women's shelters 15 years ago also comes up to trick me into thinking that "this is how it's going to be again" once I leave this State. He's dead since 2018 and I'm glad but the legacy he left me with inside my head while I self-treat for Lyme disease is trying to kill me just as much as the Lyme Disease is. And I don't deserve it. I'm desperate. I have 130 IQ and don't like MENSA, so nobody currently around me knows what the H to do with me, or how to talk to me like a friend anymore.
