I went to this counsellor couple of times. At first, I felt good. I felt relieved. I didn't even know what to expect from her, nor did she ever raise this during our nearly 20+ sessions.
We only did talk therapy and I didn't even know what type of therapy would be most suitable for me. Even after telling her I didn't benefit from the sessions with her, she didn't do much besides talk therapy.
Then when I got busy with work, I didn't have any sessions with her for more than 2 years.
I mostly disliked her because she would contradict her own self.
Once she told me to confront my father about something he did to me; I did it and it didn't go well; possibly my father gaslit me. When I told my counsellor, she sent me on guilt trip "why did you confront him?"
After few such incidents, I used to have a session with her when I wanted to vent out, and didn't expect much from her besides getting some relief from the stuff running in my head.
Then during lockdown, I did lots of journaling, and I found that my mother, sister, and eldest brother had been abusive too.
I shared about my mother, sister, and eldest brother with her. Until then, I had been venting about my father's and another brother's abusive behaviour.
My counsellor told me "your mother had her own issues" or something like that.
I wanted her to talk to me about what exactly my mother, sister, and eldest brother did to me, how their abusive behaviours had been affecting me, comfort me, help me with overcoming the effects of the abuse, and so on.
She didn't do any of these.
That was the last session I had with her ever.
I sometimes feel like talking to her again, just to vent out a little because, I don't have any other counsellor or therapist who is willing to help me in the treatment.
I have been working on my own as of now, doing grounding exercises to overcome dissociation.
We only did talk therapy and I didn't even know what type of therapy would be most suitable for me. Even after telling her I didn't benefit from the sessions with her, she didn't do much besides talk therapy.
Then when I got busy with work, I didn't have any sessions with her for more than 2 years.
I mostly disliked her because she would contradict her own self.
Once she told me to confront my father about something he did to me; I did it and it didn't go well; possibly my father gaslit me. When I told my counsellor, she sent me on guilt trip "why did you confront him?"
After few such incidents, I used to have a session with her when I wanted to vent out, and didn't expect much from her besides getting some relief from the stuff running in my head.
Then during lockdown, I did lots of journaling, and I found that my mother, sister, and eldest brother had been abusive too.
I shared about my mother, sister, and eldest brother with her. Until then, I had been venting about my father's and another brother's abusive behaviour.
My counsellor told me "your mother had her own issues" or something like that.
I wanted her to talk to me about what exactly my mother, sister, and eldest brother did to me, how their abusive behaviours had been affecting me, comfort me, help me with overcoming the effects of the abuse, and so on.
She didn't do any of these.
That was the last session I had with her ever.
I sometimes feel like talking to her again, just to vent out a little because, I don't have any other counsellor or therapist who is willing to help me in the treatment.
I have been working on my own as of now, doing grounding exercises to overcome dissociation.