E..m..p..t..y

[Bill Dickerson]

I'm so empty. I'm just sleeping. My head hurts and it's just numb. I hate this.

No where to go... no where to be...nothing to do...

Maybe I'm just dark matter taking up space.

Don't want to go anywhere...don't want to do anything....I feel like I'm in a desert and I'm slowly drying out ....bones just taking up space in the sand....

 

[Over the rainbow]

Very well written. I can really relate..
Your not gray matter, it just feels that way.
Gray matter in the brain is essential for survival, so if you are gray matter, you mean everything.
Sorry I'm cheesy.
I hope you at least smiled at my cheese. :)

 

[Viosinger]

Hang in there. Find something small to accomplish, and use that momentum to do another small task. One step at a time.

 

[Friday]

Sometimes the only way I've been able to keep moving, is by laying down and sleeping.
"I may not look like I'm doing much, but at the cellular level, I'm really quite busy." ;)

- For real.... The moving? Is forward in time. Getting through this dark period without being stupid. I've slept days, weeks, months... Just trying to get from point A to point B.

- Granted, also done it because I'm depressed as f*ck.

- And also, because I'm healing. Either too many months of insomnia, or actual physical injuries, or malnutrition...my body is taking a long overdue overhaul, very, very seriously.

- Lastly, because laid down and muscles disconnected, is pretty much the safest place for me to be cycling though flashbacks.

4 totally different things ; keep moving, depression, overhaul, disassociation & flashbacks. Any of these resonate? Or something different?

 

[Bill Dickerson]

It's just a mind numbing depression. I no longer have purpose...I just am.

All of the few friends I did have went with the job. Now nobody. I guess that's best I'm not real fun to be around for very long.

I can wind myself up for a visit to my ex's for dinner with the family every so often but that wears my energy level down to zilch.

I'll be glad when it warms up some can't even get in the yard to tinker. You ever get an idea that seems like it might make a little extra money but a month later seems completely nuts..???

You look at it and it's really stupid.....I guess I'm desperate to find a function. The one thing I was really good at I can no longer do.

Know anybody who needs a batsh!t crazy bounty hunter.....???? LOL