I appreciate and understand the comments but the crux of the problem is that I don't remember details beyond a few and the amazingly real flashbacks that put me in the room but it is only a second.
The easiest thing is to do what I did for 45 years, bury it but that does not work anymore. The problem is I am not sure I want to see or understand the full horror's I was subjected to. Sort of a lose, lose situation. I can't get better without remembering but remembering could destroy me
The easiest thing is to do what I did for 45 years, bury it but that does not work anymore. The problem is I am not sure I want to see or understand the full horror's I was subjected to. Sort of a lose, lose situation. I can't get better without remembering but remembering could destroy me