Sorry I'm so late to the party, this is wonderful Iam, I am so happy for you!!:) :tup: :inlove:
I think it's great that there are so many different techniques out there to try that can help lead us to healing. This whole thread is really inspirational, it shows what's possible, how hard work and persistence can pay off, how finding our own personal path to healing can be worth all the failures, setbacks, etc. we may face first to get there.
I completely agree with the idea that while you may not be able to be the same person you were before the trauma, you can be an even better person than you were before. I can also identify with still experiencing bad days, negative thoughts, bad things that happen, even though I'm better, because as mentioned above, that's just part of life. However I know I'm dealing with the negative things differently, and the past no longer comes as extra baggage to make me feel crushed when I'm feeling down. I know there was a time when I didn't know if I'd be comfortable not feeling the fear, not feeling stuck, not having anything to feel so broken over. Thinking back now it seems silly to have found comfort in those negative feelings, and beliefs, but I understand that they served a purpose to keep me safe at the time, and I can forgive myself for not letting go of them sooner.